To me its about him being in rehab
whether or not he has gone more than once is not the point in the first lines,
I would say
"Been here before couldn't say I liked it"
is talking about the feelings of guilt and pain that are part the inital part of healing
"Do I start writing all this down?"
this part is what screams in rehab to me, journal, diary...
"Just let me plug you into my world
Can't you help me be uncrazy?"
witness what is going on inside his head and asking those around him for help
"Name this for me, heat the cold air
Take the chill off of my life"
not sure, maybe something about how his realtionships surrounding him are vanishing and he feels cold
"And if I could I'd turn my eyes
To look inside to see what's comin"
he just wants to be able to control what is happening inside, whats causing his addiction
"It comes alive ***addcition comes to life***
And I die a little more
It comes alive
Each momnent here I die a little more"
every times he drinks he feels himself lose a little more touch with reality
"Then the unnamed feeling ***no addict wants to talk about their addiction easier to not
It comes alive say that he is infact addicted***
Then the unnamed feeling
Takes me away"
again he is losing touch with reality
"I'm frantic in your soothing arms"
help as you may but inside he struggles for something more
"I can not sleep in this down filled world"
pretending that everything around him is not going to work
"I've found safety in this loneliness"
found solitude in drink
"But I cannot stand it anymore"
literally cant take it
"Cross my heart and hope not to die"
hope to make it back, not to overdose
"Swallow evil, ride the sky"
have a shot, feel alive
"Lose myself in a crowded room"
everything around him fads away
"You fool, you fool, it will be here soon"
talking within part of him knows its coming but regrets it
"Get the fuck out of here"
cant stand the addiction
"I just wanna get the fuck away from me"
cant stand himself for giving in
"I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate"
anger, numb but causes pain
"It hate it all, why? Why? Why me?"
To me its about him being in rehab whether or not he has gone more than once is not the point in the first lines,
I would say
is talking about the feelings of guilt and pain that are part the inital part of healing
this part is what screams in rehab to me, journal, diary...
witness what is going on inside his head and asking those around him for help
not sure, maybe something about how his realtionships surrounding him are vanishing and he feels cold
he just wants to be able to control what is happening inside, whats causing his addiction
every times he drinks he feels himself lose a little more touch with reality
again he is losing touch with reality
help as you may but inside he struggles for something more
pretending that everything around him is not going to work "I've found safety in this loneliness" found solitude in drink "But I cannot stand it anymore" literally cant take it
hope to make it back, not to overdose "Swallow evil, ride the sky" have a shot, feel alive "Lose myself in a crowded room" everything around him fads away "You fool, you fool, it will be here soon" talking within part of him knows its coming but regrets it
cant stand the addiction "I just wanna get the fuck away from me" cant stand himself for giving in "I rage, I glaze, I hurt, I hate" anger, numb but causes pain "It hate it all, why? Why? Why me?"