I think the song is about him leaning on drugs to help him cope with his friend dying... And he doesn't want to keep using them (I don't want to feel this way forever), but every day he feels the loss again (crash my car everyday the same way) and has to go back to his drugs (the twilight world in blue in white, the needle and the damage done)
I think the song is about him leaning on drugs to help him cope with his friend dying... And he doesn't want to keep using them (I don't want to feel this way forever), but every day he feels the loss again (crash my car everyday the same way) and has to go back to his drugs (the twilight world in blue in white, the needle and the damage done)