oh, its february again
anniversary of the time we spent
staying up all night against eyelids
i held you close until the end
(The Girl remembering a year later how her and this guy she really thought were meant to be, but broke up. He used to sneak in her room at night and they would lay together all night because the night was all they had. Then in the morning before her parents woke up he would sneak back out, but they would never want it to end)
remember our first kiss alone
awkward as we slowly spent
searching every inch of us
of us
( She is remembering back on their first time, they had been with others before but this was special, it was different)
to make this out, will i ever make this out
these days of breaking
my heart's over
another night i spend alone
another night i spend alone
(The guy was not for everything she had to give. She pleaded to him not to be afraid. He knew that it was special but he continued to run for fear of being hurt. She couldn’t be normal around him she obsessed over wanting him to take her serious instead of valuing the things he could give her. )
these days of breaking
my heart's over
you left me on the floor
(They used to have sex on her bedroom floor so her parents wouldn’t hear, when he left her, she was left there in that memory. Her heart hit the floor when she pushed him away.)
so you're coming by tonight
i'm so tired of that line
one day i will realize
(He would call and say he was coming over but she wanted more- She wanted to make their dream world real. She started to hate herself and him because that’s all he would give. He would only give the night. In the night- they were perfect, everything she felt was real. )
you were never worth my time
until then i'll lie awake
while you lie to yourself
say the things i wanna hear
to hear
(After she ruins everything by going crazy, she cries to herself at night. She cannot sleep while he continues to lie to himself saying they aren’t ment to be- even though he knows they are. She just wants him to stop lying to himself and tell her he wants to be with her.)
to make this out, will i ever make this out
(She contemplates whether or not everything will turn out the way she wants it to, she doesn’t know if she can make it through the pain to get what she wants.)
these days of breaking
my heart's over
another night i spend alone
another night i spend alone
(Her heart still hurts and she is still all alone)
these days of breaking
my heart's over
you left me on the floor
(when he left she hit the floor)
just don't let go
got my sights on everything
can i hold your hand
i won't hold your hand
(when they first started talking he said he didn’t want anything serious, he was still getting over a girl that hurt him. She thought to herself I can do this I can wait. She asks to hold his hand. But the more she is around him the more she longs to be his one and only. She knows she cant just hold his hand she wants his heart. Something he cannot give)
just don't let go
got my sights on everything
can i hold your hand
i won't hold your hand
(There “relationship” goes up and down because she is trying to play it cool, but she is struggling because she wants him so much)
just don't let go
i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away
i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away
i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away
(They start to be disconnected and things arent working out. She cant play it cool, but he cant give her everything yet. They get in a fight and they both just give up. He thinks he was right- that she really doesn’t love him. She is trying to make herself believe it isn’t right because he is just giving up. )
don't say goodbye with your back turned to me
(they both say this as they look back at each other when the other isn’t looking. Like saying don’t just walk away like none of this ever mattered. He really wants to be with her and she wants to be with him but inside they question whether or not “love and fate” exists
-This is a story click on smypathy to read the next part.
Chapter I
oh, its february again anniversary of the time we spent staying up all night against eyelids i held you close until the end
(The Girl remembering a year later how her and this guy she really thought were meant to be, but broke up. He used to sneak in her room at night and they would lay together all night because the night was all they had. Then in the morning before her parents woke up he would sneak back out, but they would never want it to end)
remember our first kiss alone awkward as we slowly spent searching every inch of us of us
( She is remembering back on their first time, they had been with others before but this was special, it was different) to make this out, will i ever make this out
these days of breaking my heart's over another night i spend alone another night i spend alone
(The guy was not for everything she had to give. She pleaded to him not to be afraid. He knew that it was special but he continued to run for fear of being hurt. She couldn’t be normal around him she obsessed over wanting him to take her serious instead of valuing the things he could give her. )
these days of breaking my heart's over you left me on the floor (They used to have sex on her bedroom floor so her parents wouldn’t hear, when he left her, she was left there in that memory. Her heart hit the floor when she pushed him away.)
so you're coming by tonight i'm so tired of that line one day i will realize (He would call and say he was coming over but she wanted more- She wanted to make their dream world real. She started to hate herself and him because that’s all he would give. He would only give the night. In the night- they were perfect, everything she felt was real. ) you were never worth my time
until then i'll lie awake while you lie to yourself say the things i wanna hear to hear (After she ruins everything by going crazy, she cries to herself at night. She cannot sleep while he continues to lie to himself saying they aren’t ment to be- even though he knows they are. She just wants him to stop lying to himself and tell her he wants to be with her.)
to make this out, will i ever make this out
(She contemplates whether or not everything will turn out the way she wants it to, she doesn’t know if she can make it through the pain to get what she wants.)
these days of breaking my heart's over another night i spend alone another night i spend alone
(Her heart still hurts and she is still all alone)
these days of breaking my heart's over you left me on the floor (when he left she hit the floor)
just don't let go got my sights on everything can i hold your hand i won't hold your hand (when they first started talking he said he didn’t want anything serious, he was still getting over a girl that hurt him. She thought to herself I can do this I can wait. She asks to hold his hand. But the more she is around him the more she longs to be his one and only. She knows she cant just hold his hand she wants his heart. Something he cannot give)
just don't let go got my sights on everything can i hold your hand i won't hold your hand (There “relationship” goes up and down because she is trying to play it cool, but she is struggling because she wants him so much) just don't let go
i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away (They start to be disconnected and things arent working out. She cant play it cool, but he cant give her everything yet. They get in a fight and they both just give up. He thinks he was right- that she really doesn’t love him. She is trying to make herself believe it isn’t right because he is just giving up. )
don't say goodbye with your back turned to me (they both say this as they look back at each other when the other isn’t looking. Like saying don’t just walk away like none of this ever mattered. He really wants to be with her and she wants to be with him but inside they question whether or not “love and fate” exists -This is a story click on smypathy to read the next part.