It's a story of God throwing him into situations that he can't handle, but knows that he must. He's running away from the doors that God is opening, but knows that it's the Lords will that prevails. He goes along in fear and tries to hold on tight, but knows that in himself he can't do it. He then fully gives up. He set out with such a large mission, but now that he's seen the cost he wants to go back to a comfortable life instead of this one.
It's a story of God throwing him into situations that he can't handle, but knows that he must. He's running away from the doors that God is opening, but knows that it's the Lords will that prevails. He goes along in fear and tries to hold on tight, but knows that in himself he can't do it. He then fully gives up. He set out with such a large mission, but now that he's seen the cost he wants to go back to a comfortable life instead of this one.