Since losing you, the only defense I have against my own pain is to just keep trudging on with life. But damn it's making me crazy. [the feeling I get from the 'axle' line is of mustering up a huge, heavy effort to do this, and then just rolling through life zombie-style because that's all she has strength to do. Making herself get out of bed in the morning and go to work and get through the day.]
A full-blown storm ('eye') like the one going on in my heart right now can only last so long; at times like these, when you find yourself alone in the world, you see life in all its stark banality (like Saturn watching its own rings going round and round and round), and you can only look for so long before you just have to curl up and look away.
So I'm just gonna curl up for a while and not think about the effect you've had on me - the ways I've changed because of you, and the way you held my heart so tenderly and let me be me. Somehow life has to go on.
But...you're gone, and I hurt, and the void you've left is tangible.
Sometimes my strength just gives out and I can't keep the memories and emotions out any longer, and the storm rages again.
I hear: (from woman's p.o.v.)
Since losing you, the only defense I have against my own pain is to just keep trudging on with life. But damn it's making me crazy. [the feeling I get from the 'axle' line is of mustering up a huge, heavy effort to do this, and then just rolling through life zombie-style because that's all she has strength to do. Making herself get out of bed in the morning and go to work and get through the day.]
A full-blown storm ('eye') like the one going on in my heart right now can only last so long; at times like these, when you find yourself alone in the world, you see life in all its stark banality (like Saturn watching its own rings going round and round and round), and you can only look for so long before you just have to curl up and look away.
So I'm just gonna curl up for a while and not think about the effect you've had on me - the ways I've changed because of you, and the way you held my heart so tenderly and let me be me. Somehow life has to go on.
But...you're gone, and I hurt, and the void you've left is tangible.
Sometimes my strength just gives out and I can't keep the memories and emotions out any longer, and the storm rages again.