Song is not about suicide.. this song became personal to me during a rough time in life and i must say (subjectively) i feel it's about a relationship. the first verse is well enough, he was "let go" and keeps trying to refuse to look back. You say you're gunna go a million times in a relationship, verbally, personally, but i think this is to himself. Love is a thing that cannot be easily let go, so he's gunna have to blow his own mind, doing something he feels is impossible, but he's determined and will not cry wolf - won't look back or try again for that situation. The one i trusted sold me - right there, i'd say that he was hurt. Let go, lost, betrayed, deemed unworthy, in an illusion if you will. and the bridge -
"I figured out
I�m holding onto time
And I can�t let go
I�m hiding, I�m needy, on the inside I�m bleeding
I�m searching for something but
Can�t seem to find me
On the surface is someone who pretends to focus
I�m waiting and wanting to cut this and go on
Trying to live when the pain can all be gone
Then fall into confusion (correction)*
The voice in my head leading me here back home"
He's holding on to the past, "what was".. "what has been".. "What isn't any longer".. Inside he's hurting and trying to find closure and enough reason to let go and go on. He's looking for so much that he somehow loses himself, he's destroying himself. He is waiting for something to happen, another girl, the strength, etc., he wants to move on. But the voice in his head, her, is deceiving him and calling him back every time he tries to let go.
Song is not about suicide.. this song became personal to me during a rough time in life and i must say (subjectively) i feel it's about a relationship. the first verse is well enough, he was "let go" and keeps trying to refuse to look back. You say you're gunna go a million times in a relationship, verbally, personally, but i think this is to himself. Love is a thing that cannot be easily let go, so he's gunna have to blow his own mind, doing something he feels is impossible, but he's determined and will not cry wolf - won't look back or try again for that situation. The one i trusted sold me - right there, i'd say that he was hurt. Let go, lost, betrayed, deemed unworthy, in an illusion if you will. and the bridge - "I figured out I�m holding onto time And I can�t let go I�m hiding, I�m needy, on the inside I�m bleeding I�m searching for something but Can�t seem to find me On the surface is someone who pretends to focus I�m waiting and wanting to cut this and go on Trying to live when the pain can all be gone Then fall into confusion (correction)* The voice in my head leading me here back home"
He's holding on to the past, "what was".. "what has been".. "What isn't any longer".. Inside he's hurting and trying to find closure and enough reason to let go and go on. He's looking for so much that he somehow loses himself, he's destroying himself. He is waiting for something to happen, another girl, the strength, etc., he wants to move on. But the voice in his head, her, is deceiving him and calling him back every time he tries to let go.
My take, Wonderful song.