...However, being an ex-junkie I have a tendency to relate everything to heroin, so I figured I'll also throw in how this song absolutely SCREAMS drug addiction to me.
So the first couple lines--which refer to running from your feelings--would, in this case, mean getting high so you don't have to deal with them.
"if you fight yourself hard enough
you'll never win any ounce of serenity"--if you keep damaging your body with drugs & the whole lifestyle that comes with being an addict, you're only gonna end up feeling worse--much worse--in the end.
"can leave you heaving on the floor
gasping for breath"--Eventually the pain will be to great to mask with the usual amount of drugs (lets use heroin for the sake of this analysis), and you can/will end up overdosing.
"your either the person you are
or the person your trying to be"--either you accept reality & your natural emotions, or keep trying to feel something different by getting high.
"dont let the outside sway too far
from where you want to be"--if you're not careful, the life you have to live to support your habit can become worse than your old life, & you'll be farther than ever from the security you wanted.
"and at any cruel moments notice
you can ruin the best
as your body is brutally pressed
against the confines of your tense flesh"--overdose/withdrawals.
"and if you close your eyes tight enough (none of the bad can get in)
and if you close your eyes tight enough (none of the light can get in)
the light cant get in (the light cant get in)"--as long as you live in your addiction you can escape intense pain but you will NEVER know real happiness. Ever.
"BOOM. you scream as the light hits you
it radiates throughout your whole soul
BOOM. the pain is clarity, it cleanses
and if it still fucking hurts
then you still fucking know, that you are still alive,
that you are still in control, if you would only take hold
BOOM. the day with both hands, a death grip
and a good chance to outlive your past
are you living free?"--Every addict hits rock bottom. You realise you are powerless over your addiction & your life has become unmanagable. This generally happens when the dope runs out. You're withdrawing; in a world of pain--forced to remember what reality feels like. And to accept that all the pain and sadness you're experiencing was brought on by your own goddamn self.
You never want to feel it again!!! ...And you never ever have to...just stay clean from that moment on. You thought you HAD to 'use'. You were a slave to the drug. But you can be free forever if you give it up now! There is still time--it hasn't killed you yet. You are still in control. Make the change. Save yourself.
...However, being an ex-junkie I have a tendency to relate everything to heroin, so I figured I'll also throw in how this song absolutely SCREAMS drug addiction to me.
So the first couple lines--which refer to running from your feelings--would, in this case, mean getting high so you don't have to deal with them.
"if you fight yourself hard enough you'll never win any ounce of serenity"--if you keep damaging your body with drugs & the whole lifestyle that comes with being an addict, you're only gonna end up feeling worse--much worse--in the end.
"can leave you heaving on the floor gasping for breath"--Eventually the pain will be to great to mask with the usual amount of drugs (lets use heroin for the sake of this analysis), and you can/will end up overdosing.
"your either the person you are or the person your trying to be"--either you accept reality & your natural emotions, or keep trying to feel something different by getting high.
"dont let the outside sway too far from where you want to be"--if you're not careful, the life you have to live to support your habit can become worse than your old life, & you'll be farther than ever from the security you wanted.
"and at any cruel moments notice you can ruin the best as your body is brutally pressed against the confines of your tense flesh"--overdose/withdrawals.
"and if you close your eyes tight enough (none of the bad can get in) and if you close your eyes tight enough (none of the light can get in) the light cant get in (the light cant get in)"--as long as you live in your addiction you can escape intense pain but you will NEVER know real happiness. Ever.
"BOOM. you scream as the light hits you it radiates throughout your whole soul BOOM. the pain is clarity, it cleanses and if it still fucking hurts then you still fucking know, that you are still alive, that you are still in control, if you would only take hold BOOM. the day with both hands, a death grip and a good chance to outlive your past are you living free?"--Every addict hits rock bottom. You realise you are powerless over your addiction & your life has become unmanagable. This generally happens when the dope runs out. You're withdrawing; in a world of pain--forced to remember what reality feels like. And to accept that all the pain and sadness you're experiencing was brought on by your own goddamn self. You never want to feel it again!!! ...And you never ever have to...just stay clean from that moment on. You thought you HAD to 'use'. You were a slave to the drug. But you can be free forever if you give it up now! There is still time--it hasn't killed you yet. You are still in control. Make the change. Save yourself.