I have so much to say about this song that moves me so much!
It moves me to the fullest!
this is what some of it means to me :)
"I went from zero to minus ten"
-To me this me that her mood, on a scale from +10 \ -10 she was on a 0 (whitc is not so great :S), and then her world colappsed somehow and she all of a sudden found her selv down at minus 10.
"I drank your wine then I stole your man.
I leave the light on,
I leave that light on."
-Through the intire song the light (like a nght lamp that she can leave on at night) means comfort and safety. Bssic human needs.
But here it seems to me like she is using it as a comfort or excuse to her self after having an affaire.
This is just me thinking, but it could very well be that the reason she is having an affair in the beginning here, needing that mail attention, is because of what she tells about leter on, that she had an abusive father (in one way or another) and lacked attention:
"Daddy ain't that bad he just plays rough"
"I ain't that scarred when I'm covered up "
-When she is covered up, eighter with chlotes or having on a mask to protect herself, it is as shes trying to cover up what has happened to her self and to everybody. Later on, at the end of the song she sings something simular. She is trying so hard to be strong. ("I anint THAT bad\sad\scarred)
"I ain't that bad I'm just messed up
I ain't that sad but I'm sad enough"
"Little girl hiding underneath the bed was it something I did.
Must be something I said.
I leave the light on, better leave the light on."
-It means that she needs the light on at night so can feel safe, like a little child. After all... the need to "leave the light on" started when she was little, and went on throug her intire life. Her father also made her feel guilty for something she now think she did and thet she needs to be punished for. To comfort her self she would like the light on.
"17 and I'm all messed up inside
I cut myself just to feel alive"
"pretty scars from cigarettes"
Singing about self injury so openly is a really great thing, and whith all the stuff shes gone throug its easy to see why she needed to feel alive so much.
"21 on the run,on the run, on the run from myself, from myself and everyone"
This is pretty obvious, but its sad to see that she couldnt face her problems and overcome them, but instead ran away (like a lot of young people do when everything seems hopeless and to chaotic to deal with).
"Cause I wanna love
I wanna live
I don't know much about it
I never did,
I don't know what to do, can the damage be undone
I swore to God that I'd never be what I've become
Lucky stars and fairy tales
I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well"
She didnt wish this life for her selv, and all she want is to be happy. But to all of a sudden start to live, is not easy when you dont know why. Its like eksplaining how "yellow" looks like to a born blind man. Seems so hopeless. The song is filled with frustration here, and she screams out that she doesnt know what to do. And all she can do now is to bade herself "in a wishin` well."
I have so much to say about this song that moves me so much! It moves me to the fullest! this is what some of it means to me :)
"I went from zero to minus ten"
-To me this me that her mood, on a scale from +10 \ -10 she was on a 0 (whitc is not so great :S), and then her world colappsed somehow and she all of a sudden found her selv down at minus 10.
"I drank your wine then I stole your man. I leave the light on, I leave that light on."
-Through the intire song the light (like a nght lamp that she can leave on at night) means comfort and safety. Bssic human needs. But here it seems to me like she is using it as a comfort or excuse to her self after having an affaire. This is just me thinking, but it could very well be that the reason she is having an affair in the beginning here, needing that mail attention, is because of what she tells about leter on, that she had an abusive father (in one way or another) and lacked attention: "Daddy ain't that bad he just plays rough"
"I ain't that scarred when I'm covered up "
-When she is covered up, eighter with chlotes or having on a mask to protect herself, it is as she
s trying to cover up what has happened to her self and to everybody. Later on, at the end of the song she sings something simular. She is trying so hard to be strong. ("I anint THAT bad\sad\scarred) "I ain't that bad I'm just messed up I ain't that sad but I'm sad enough""Little girl hiding underneath the bed was it something I did. Must be something I said. I leave the light on, better leave the light on."
-It means that she needs the light on at night so can feel safe, like a little child. After all... the need to "leave the light on" started when she was little, and went on throug her intire life. Her father also made her feel guilty for something she now think she did and thet she needs to be punished for. To comfort her self she would like the light on.
"17 and I'm all messed up inside I cut myself just to feel alive"
"pretty scars from cigarettes"
Singing about self injury so openly is a really great thing, and whith all the stuff she
s gone throug its easy to see why she needed to feel alive so much."21 on the run,on the run, on the run from myself, from myself and everyone" This is pretty obvious, but it
s sad to see that she couldnt face her problems and overcome them, but instead ran away (like a lot of young people do when everything seems hopeless and to chaotic to deal with)."Cause I wanna love I wanna live I don't know much about it I never did, I don't know what to do, can the damage be undone I swore to God that I'd never be what I've become Lucky stars and fairy tales I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well"
She didn
t wish this life for her selv, and all she want is to be happy. But to all of a sudden start to live, is not easy when you dont know why. Its like eksplaining how "yellow" looks like to a born blind man. Seems so hopeless. The song is filled with frustration here, and she screams out that she doesnt know what to do. And all she can do now is to bade herself "in a wishin` well."