Misguided Ghosts

This song is simply beautiful. This song kind of gives me the feel of some of Ingrid Michaelson's lyrics. But Hayley's voice just continues to amaze me. I'm going through some pretty tough times right now, and her music always helps me get through my day. Especially this song.

It helped me realize what my bf was trying to tell me a few weeks ago. My boyfriend and I are best friends. We have been inseperable since the very first day that I met him. Our differences complimented each other pretty well, so I'm guessing thats what made our relationship soo strong. When i met him, i was 15 and he was 18. We had many other people putting our relationship down everyday because everyone judged me without knowing me and said that i was a baby still and that we were never going to get far. Little did they know that my bf was dating this 15 year old because he found her to be more mature than any other girls or friends his age.

My family is suffering through financial issues. They've been struggling for about 4 years. We have to deal with moving a lot because we have to live with different relatives, and the reasons why we leave are just mainly because something always happens to occur when we just begin to settle in. Well, my bf knew all of this, and he told me that he didnt care. That he would follow me and do whatever it took to be with me. We even had plans to start a life after i graduate high school. Yes, many think that we're young and we dont know what we want, but I honestly believe that we both have good heads on our shoulders. We were both very convinced that all of this would happen after I graduated that we both put each other first before ANYTHING.

One year and almost nine months into our relationship, I end up moving to Perris while he is living in Rialto which is about twenty five mins from where he lives. I've lived this far from him before, but now he has to drive uphill to see me. The problen with that is that now his car is really old and messed up. He cant afford to drive all the way uphill anymore because his job is in ontario and the college he attends is in yucaipa. Once I moved up here he got soo depressed and i got down because he was down, but even after all of this, i believed that we could make out relationship work. And i still do. I've always believed that if you really love someone and if you keep your faith in God, that He will also help and pull you through this.

On the other hand, my bf believed that me moving so far away and his car getting worse was a sign that we just werent meant to be. He believed that this relationship wasnt going to work out. I was soo angry and hurt and confused that he felt this because he was the one person who always told me that anything is possible. He is the one who taught me to never quit. And he was the only boy that had told me that we were going to be together and that he wanted to marry me. For almost two years this went on until the day i moved to Perris. And what made everything worse was that we had spoken about us continuing our relationship under such circumstances and he said that we could make it work. Then once i got here, all of that faith and hope just seemed to vanish and his depression was showing me someone whom i did not know could exist in his body. He told me that he wanted a break because he needed time to find himself.

I refused to give him the break. I still am hurt that he asked me for one. This is the hardest time that we've been ever been through. I think the only way we can get through this is together. Not give each other more space. Anyhow, after everything was settled a bit, i heard this song, and i kept listening to it over and over again because it sounded so familiar. And then it hits me that this is everything my bf Andy was trying to tell me.

In this song, Hayley is explaining the thoughts of someone who is feeling like their world is falling completely apart. This person is so down that they feel that even the person they love the most cant help them fix what they're going through. And as hurt as the person they love most may feel, they should not feel useless. Andy didnt want me to worry or feel useless. He told me that he would be back as soon as he gathered himself up again.

And the part where she sings 'would someone care to classify a broken heart and twisted minds so i can find someone to rely on and run to them'?, at this time, andy had found a friend. She was a girl and it bothered me, but he kept trying to explain that he just wanted someone to be there with him when i wasnt since we used to see each other everyday from mornging to night and now we only see each other at most 3 times a week. It was hard for me to accept that he just needed someone because from day one, it had only been me as the only girl in his life. I never had to worry about another girl coming into our relationship, so he stopped talking to her. But this song made me realize everything that we were going through.

Now, things are still a bit bumpy and he and I are still smoothing things out, but Paramore's songs have helped me through my situations with my family and they have helped me with my faith in God as well. But this song, has touched my life soo much more than any other, because sometimes i feel isolated living out here, but once i hear this song, it helps me to feel that i'm not the only one that feels like this and that things will get better for me and andy and my family as well. So I thank God for allowing me to come across this song. And one day, i wish that i'll get to thank Hayley for her inspirational music and for inspiring to not give up on singing.

And i know that this was probablythe longest comment ever left on here, but i thank those of you who took the time out to read it and to see what my point of view is on this beautiful song. Thank you.