Cry Me A River

I was randomly listening to songs today and this one came on. The lyrics hit me like a ton of bricks and I can completely relate to them. My ex didn't really understand how much I loved him despite all the issues he had. He will never know. I was there for him when his life was in a downward spiral and lifted his spirits when he was struggling to stay happy. Once he was situated in his life, he ditched me. I was going through hell in my life and needed him to be there for me like I had been there for him. He literally stopped talking to me from one day to the next. I am ashamed to say that I called him and begged him to call me so that I could get closure. I understood that we were over but I needed to hear it from him. I stayed up all night since he promised he would call. The call never came. For the first time I knew what it was like to be used and have my heart punched out of my chest. I fell apart and suffered from severe insomnia for a week due to my personal struggles at the time and this was made worse by him. To this day, I still have issues with my sleeping habits. He called me a few months after this happened, once I had been nursed by friends and family, and said that he needed me and still loved me. It was too late though. He had no idea how much he had hurt me and how selfish he was. He was not there for me when I was laying in bed at night, exhausted, and couldn't get a wink of sleep. For me, This song perfectly fits that situation. Now it is his turn to struggle and I know I will be okay.