How Much It Hurts Lyrics

Lyric discussion by butwhenwewake 

Cover art for How Much It Hurts lyrics by Just Off Turner

I love this song so much. It truly touches me. In my case this really explains so many things that my ex-boyfriend and i went through in our relationship. We just split up two days ago (mainly) because I live in California, and he just moved to Florida. We were together for the best yet worst year (14 months) of my life. For me this song is about again in my case a girl who really wants her man to open up and really let her in to comfort him. He could be so closed off, because he was so hurt in his past. Her man tells the girl that he loves her with all of his heart and would be so proud to show her off to the world as his woman. But, he's so scared of being hurt because of his past that he just can't fully trust her.

We would fight all the time, almost every day because he didn't trust me. He would always accuse me of staring at guys, his brother and even his dad... I stopped talking to all of my guy friends and I dropped all my friends, even girl friends, for him. I was with him almost every second of the day besides going to school and going to work. He would keep count of all my Facebook friends... I couldn't even be in the same room as I guy by myself, even if they were my friend... There were just so many unnecessary things that I couldn't do. We fought not only because of his past where his ex-girlfriend before me cheated on him, but because of my so-called "promiscuous" past. He is the only guy that I ever made love to, but in my past when I was single, well... I lived the single life (without the sex). He didn't understand that who I am when I am single, isn't the person that I am when I am in a fully committed relationship. I am a hopeless romantic. I don't believe in cheating, and I never ever cheated on him and I never would cheat on anyone that I was with. He never trusted me, not only because of his past, but because of my past. He never understood that I was in this just for him, in the present. (But not because of where I stand but where I've been)

And it hurt me so badly to know that I didn't deserve to be treated the way he treated me sometimes, but I loved him too much to let him go. He said that if I stayed with him, it would help to heal his trust issues but we were together for over a year and he never got better. (And it burns, you know it burns like hell) Now that he had to move to Florida, we decided that it was best if we went our separate ways, especially since he couldn't trust me when we lived together, how could he trust me all the way in Florida. We would just keep fighting over stupid bullshit. So now that we can't be together even though we love each other so much, there is nothing we can do but wish each other the very best life.

All this time I continued to stay with him, because I hoped that he would change and start to trust me. (I've been giving you the benefit of the doubt)

I still love my ex-boyfriend, and a part of me always will. I just wish that he could have opened up to me, trusted me and that things could have worked about better, because he is an amazing person despite all the pain we went through.

This is just how I hear the song in my own experience...

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