I relate to every part of this song.
I think she's expressing her restlessness and confusion.
She's hurting and she doesn't want to work through it. She doesn't feel strong enough.
She seems to hate the idea that she's becoming like her mother, and she's losing self-esteem.
And I think the line "my lullaby sounds more like distant screams,
I wake up sleep-deprived after every dream" could be a reference to the song (which is a song about her mother).
I'm in the same sort of boat. I've had to deal with some pretty messed up things, as have a lot of people, but it messes with my sleep. I have so many nightmares, which I usually don't remember but I jump or wake up scared, screaming or crying pretty often. I could sleep an entire night and wake up the next day completely exhausted. And I completely agree with the line "I wish my restlessness would open doors" I stay up all night, I think about things and I reach the lowest lows and I just wish that there was a reason for it. I wish the horrible dreams and the thoughts would bring me to some conclusion, but it never does.
I relate to every part of this song. I think she's expressing her restlessness and confusion. She's hurting and she doesn't want to work through it. She doesn't feel strong enough. She seems to hate the idea that she's becoming like her mother, and she's losing self-esteem.
And I think the line "my lullaby sounds more like distant screams, I wake up sleep-deprived after every dream" could be a reference to the song (which is a song about her mother).
I'm in the same sort of boat. I've had to deal with some pretty messed up things, as have a lot of people, but it messes with my sleep. I have so many nightmares, which I usually don't remember but I jump or wake up scared, screaming or crying pretty often. I could sleep an entire night and wake up the next day completely exhausted. And I completely agree with the line "I wish my restlessness would open doors" I stay up all night, I think about things and I reach the lowest lows and I just wish that there was a reason for it. I wish the horrible dreams and the thoughts would bring me to some conclusion, but it never does.
This song is unique. It really is.