Cat and Mouse

This song completely touches my heart...

It's when you reach a point in a relationship you've been in where you realize that something is different, due to something specific happening or just something that you finally see; the relationship is crumbling, dissolving right before your eyes.

It's when you're shaking because you feel like everything's ending after all this time because the damage may be irreparable... everything happy is fading so far into the distance that you can barely see it, and you have happy pictures of the two of you around you but you can't connect with those people in the picture anymore-- the you in the picture said you'd never leave, but now that's what you're thinking of doing because the other person won't change and you've tried all you can to fix it, and all that's left is arguments and bitterness, and you're not satisfied with where you're at anymore--you need something to change or grow.

Then you can't help but question why things turned out this way, why nothing good ever happens, or when it does it always has a price to pay. The perfect person turns out to be not-so-perfect, or as you grow they stay in the same place and disapprove of how you've changed, and you find something that makes you happy but at the consequence of division between you and your significant other. It's all you wanted to just be happy--is that too much to ask?--but all you ever get is trouble for it.

And you've made plans to be with that person forever, or get married, and you still mean them, or at least you meant it back when you said it and you still want to mean it now. It wasn't just stories, that was your life you were planning. And you go from grand plans of happiness to a dreary, never-ending game of trying to make the other person react, when you know neither of you will ever really win; you're unequal forces against each other, but nothing ever gets settled. And all you remember is fighting and arguing to the point that you don't even feel like the same person before the thing happened that sent you down this path with them.

Especially when they swore they loved you so much they would die for you, or that they couldn't live without you. But that's easy to say, and it's so much harder to show it, but it's shown by living for that person, every day keeping them in mind and communicating and being considerate, patient, sacrificing, unselfish, involved with their daily life, and really caring for them and their well-being. But that's so hard when you reach a point where you feel you're the only one doing the giving, or when you know you're not really living for them but you justify it because they're not really living for you... it's accusatory, it's asking if they will change to keep that promise they made to you.

For me, this song could end either way; we don't know if his relationship actually dissolves or whether they make up and renew their promises. I'm inclined to believe it didn't work out, and they moved on because of the way people usually are, but on a good day... sometimes i believe in reconciliation. It's tough, but if you can do it you can get out of the situation this song is about...

sorry for writing so much.