Swans and the Swimming

this and sacred vision are my favorites off the new album i think it's about a girl trying to cope with a break up and she wants so badly just to go back with him to any perfectly ordinary day or "back to the pond with the swans and the swimming". she remembers everything and even scents remind her of him which makes her feel raw and exposed because she's not with him anymore and she knows he doesn't want her back. but it's taught her something because she now realizes that she should love every moment. she should cherish everthing. even her suffering because it will make her grow. she tries to walk away but she keeps relapsing into her despair which has become like a habit she is trying to break. the rain takes the place of her lover as company. she's afraid for the sun to come back because it's gives her an excuse to stay sad and she feels like it connects her to him. she still wants him but she has to much trepedition and doesn't want to put herself out there to get even more hurt "The sun on the sand, on her knees and her hands As she begs for her fish from the water" I think this is tlaking about how futile and purile she feels in wanting to go back to him, almost like begging for a fish from the water. she's only punishing herself by feeling all of this and she's become a slave to her sadness so she decides to move on and, hopefully, "given time she may find something better"