I think it's about attempting or thinking about suicide.
I conjure up the thought of being gone < thinking about life without her.
"I try to think about which way, Would I be able to and would I be afraid" Which way she'd do it and wondering if she'd have the courage to do it.
Then
I would never pull the trigger
But I've cried wolf a thousand times < She's tried to but knows she could never go through with it.
I think it's about attempting or thinking about suicide. I conjure up the thought of being gone < thinking about life without her. "I try to think about which way, Would I be able to and would I be afraid" Which way she'd do it and wondering if she'd have the courage to do it.
Then I would never pull the trigger But I've cried wolf a thousand times < She's tried to but knows she could never go through with it.