I don't know, I kind of thought of this song as meaning that the character is pretending to be someone / something he isn't, and he feels like he lost everything and is martyring himself (I'm not an extremely religious person, but he does say "I'm on the cross") and things aren't okay, it's more like a cry for help. And as for accusing the person he's speaking to about wanting a better life or bigger home, that's what he thought he wanted but he lost himself trying to "rearrange" his life. He is scared and is trying to explain it to someone he feels like he's losing. I never really thought of it meaning suicide until really thinking about it, but I think it's more like "truth or a lie" continuing living a lie or die in truth. He's confessing something, he can't handle what's going on in his life, and he's letting someone know that. I don't think he really wants to commit, but he's struggling with tons of emotions.
I don't know, I kind of thought of this song as meaning that the character is pretending to be someone / something he isn't, and he feels like he lost everything and is martyring himself (I'm not an extremely religious person, but he does say "I'm on the cross") and things aren't okay, it's more like a cry for help. And as for accusing the person he's speaking to about wanting a better life or bigger home, that's what he thought he wanted but he lost himself trying to "rearrange" his life. He is scared and is trying to explain it to someone he feels like he's losing. I never really thought of it meaning suicide until really thinking about it, but I think it's more like "truth or a lie" continuing living a lie or die in truth. He's confessing something, he can't handle what's going on in his life, and he's letting someone know that. I don't think he really wants to commit, but he's struggling with tons of emotions.
At least that's my personal interpretation...