I am definately willing to bet that this is somehow connected to God and such since this is a Christian group, but here is my interpretation of the words, since I have some personal experience with stuff like this: I belive it's about a person, who cuts themself and God is trying to help them and they are trying to help themself, but they can't stop because it has become an addiction.
Enemy, familiar friend,
My beginning and my end,
This may refer to the person's weapon of choice for self injury.
Knowing truth, whispering lies,
And it hurts again.
They know that it's wrong to self injure and they want to stop, but there is so much pain in their life they just can't.
What I fear and what I try,
The words are saying what I hide,
They are trying to stop, but they fear being hurt again and the words they may have carved onto their arms are telling about their pain.
All the pain, I want it to end,
But I want it again.
They want to end all the pain, but self injury has become an addiction, so they can't stop.
And it finds me,
The fight inside is coarsing through my veins,
And it's raging,
The fight inside is breaking me again.
The fight inside is obviously the pain they are feeling and it's breaking them apart.
It's still the same, pursuing pain,
Isn't worth the lie I've gained.
They want more pain, but pain isn't worth the lie that it will make everything better.
We both know how this will end,
But I do it again.
They know self injuring is a bad choice because eventually it leads to suicide (sometimes not always) and so they say that both him/her and God know that it's a bad choice, but they do again anyway.
And it finds me,
The fight inside is coarsing through my veins.
And it's raging,
The fight inside is hurting me again.
And it finds me,
The war within me pulls me under.
And without You,
The fight inside is breaking me again.
Without God the self injurer can't go on and again the fight inside is breaking them inside.
It's nothing.
It's everything.
They try to tell themself that self injuring is nothing, but really it's their whole life.
It's breaking me.
I'm falling apart.
The fight inside is breaking them and they are falling apart.
I am definately willing to bet that this is somehow connected to God and such since this is a Christian group, but here is my interpretation of the words, since I have some personal experience with stuff like this: I belive it's about a person, who cuts themself and God is trying to help them and they are trying to help themself, but they can't stop because it has become an addiction.
Enemy, familiar friend, My beginning and my end,
This may refer to the person's weapon of choice for self injury.
Knowing truth, whispering lies, And it hurts again.
They know that it's wrong to self injure and they want to stop, but there is so much pain in their life they just can't.
What I fear and what I try, The words are saying what I hide,
They are trying to stop, but they fear being hurt again and the words they may have carved onto their arms are telling about their pain.
All the pain, I want it to end, But I want it again.
They want to end all the pain, but self injury has become an addiction, so they can't stop.
And it finds me, The fight inside is coarsing through my veins, And it's raging, The fight inside is breaking me again.
The fight inside is obviously the pain they are feeling and it's breaking them apart.
It's still the same, pursuing pain, Isn't worth the lie I've gained.
They want more pain, but pain isn't worth the lie that it will make everything better.
We both know how this will end, But I do it again.
They know self injuring is a bad choice because eventually it leads to suicide (sometimes not always) and so they say that both him/her and God know that it's a bad choice, but they do again anyway.
And it finds me, The fight inside is coarsing through my veins. And it's raging, The fight inside is hurting me again. And it finds me, The war within me pulls me under. And without You, The fight inside is breaking me again.
Without God the self injurer can't go on and again the fight inside is breaking them inside.
It's nothing. It's everything.
They try to tell themself that self injuring is nothing, but really it's their whole life.
It's breaking me. I'm falling apart.
The fight inside is breaking them and they are falling apart.