This is about missing a dysfunctional relationship. Even though she was a train wreck, things sputtered out like cigarette ashes, and she was emotionally abusive*, he misses her. She haunts his dreams, keeping him awake. If he missing this horrible relationship, how can there be a god?
*"Raised like a bruise" is a metaphor for being "turned into a bruise" probably mentally not literally. Nothing to do with child rearing.
This is about missing a dysfunctional relationship. Even though she was a train wreck, things sputtered out like cigarette ashes, and she was emotionally abusive*, he misses her. She haunts his dreams, keeping him awake. If he missing this horrible relationship, how can there be a god?
*"Raised like a bruise" is a metaphor for being "turned into a bruise" probably mentally not literally. Nothing to do with child rearing.