the version on 'a positive rage', recorded late 2007, has the penultimate line as "i don't know for sure if she's even alive" - it think it gives a more pessimistic sort of feeling to it. either way the narrator doesn't know what he wants to know, but the possibility that the girl (probably holly) is dead rather than just unobtainable makes it a much sadder story.
the version on 'a positive rage', recorded late 2007, has the penultimate line as "i don't know for sure if she's even alive" - it think it gives a more pessimistic sort of feeling to it. either way the narrator doesn't know what he wants to know, but the possibility that the girl (probably holly) is dead rather than just unobtainable makes it a much sadder story.