Some of the songs on this album have this very heavy feeling of apathy about them (Every Day is Exactly the Same), this one included.
"There are things I said I would never do"
-Pretty obvious.
"There are fears I can not believe have come true"
-Things he couldn't have believed would happened, but did.
"For my soul is too sick and it's too little and too late"
-He feels like it's late to save him.
"and myself I have grown to weary to hate"
-He's too tired of it all to fight.
"The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear"
-The longer he stays in the hole of his depression/apathy, the harder it is for him to see an exit. The hole slowly eats at him till he's gone from reality.
"As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur"
-He knew where he was in the world, but whatever happened to change him, made him question his life and reality. He came to the conclusion that the world sucks, thus making him depressed.
There's somebody on top of me
I don't know I don't know
-He has a feeling of overwhelming resistance to recovery
Is anyone stopping me?
I don't know I don't know"
-"Is anybody gonna stop this or save me?"
I won't try and hold my breath
I don't know I don't know
-"I'm not gonna hold my breath for somebody to help"
"Just how far can I go
I don't know I don't know"
-"How far can I go downward in this depression/apathy?"
"As I lay here and stare
the fabric starts to tear
It's far beyond repair
And I don't really care"
He's so apathetic and depressed, he just watches his reality tear and his life crumble. His depression has gotten so far that it can't be fixed, but he's too apathetic to care.
Some of the songs on this album have this very heavy feeling of apathy about them (Every Day is Exactly the Same), this one included.
"There are things I said I would never do" -Pretty obvious. "There are fears I can not believe have come true" -Things he couldn't have believed would happened, but did. "For my soul is too sick and it's too little and too late" -He feels like it's late to save him. "and myself I have grown to weary to hate" -He's too tired of it all to fight.
"The more I stay in here The more it's not so clear The more I stay in here The more I disappear" -The longer he stays in the hole of his depression/apathy, the harder it is for him to see an exit. The hole slowly eats at him till he's gone from reality.
"As far as I have gone I knew what side I'm on But now I'm not so sure The line begins to blur" -He knew where he was in the world, but whatever happened to change him, made him question his life and reality. He came to the conclusion that the world sucks, thus making him depressed.
There's somebody on top of me I don't know I don't know -He has a feeling of overwhelming resistance to recovery
Is anyone stopping me? I don't know I don't know" -"Is anybody gonna stop this or save me?" I won't try and hold my breath I don't know I don't know -"I'm not gonna hold my breath for somebody to help" "Just how far can I go I don't know I don't know" -"How far can I go downward in this depression/apathy?"
"As I lay here and stare the fabric starts to tear It's far beyond repair And I don't really care" He's so apathetic and depressed, he just watches his reality tear and his life crumble. His depression has gotten so far that it can't be fixed, but he's too apathetic to care.