She is standing on a train platform, and something inside is telling her to step off, to be "cut through clean" by the wheels of a train.
She is transfixed by what is below her - death - and shudders to think what she would see if she looked behind her - at life. She might also mean that she is afraid of her past.
Having "faith", being "strong" - it did nothing for her. She believes she was always "fated" to end up at this point - at the brink of death. So why not jump to her death and get it done with?
"I could be clean and through" - she could be "clean" and pure in death rather than facing the mess of life, and "through" - over, finished, done with it.
When she has a bad day, she falls off the "merry-go-round" - the smiling-faced routines and cycles of "healthy" society.
She's already falling towards death, so she'll make the final decision and jump.
She is standing on a train platform, and something inside is telling her to step off, to be "cut through clean" by the wheels of a train.
She is transfixed by what is below her - death - and shudders to think what she would see if she looked behind her - at life. She might also mean that she is afraid of her past.
Having "faith", being "strong" - it did nothing for her. She believes she was always "fated" to end up at this point - at the brink of death. So why not jump to her death and get it done with?
"I could be clean and through" - she could be "clean" and pure in death rather than facing the mess of life, and "through" - over, finished, done with it.
When she has a bad day, she falls off the "merry-go-round" - the smiling-faced routines and cycles of "healthy" society.
She's already falling towards death, so she'll make the final decision and jump.