The way I interpret this song is pretty much the same as fireToSteel0423's interpretation - that is, the song is about some form of addiction.
Here's how I see a few more of the lines...
"All the pain, I want it to end
But I want it again"
"Still the same, pursuing pain
Is it worth all I have gained?" /I'm pretty sure that's what the lyrics in the booklet say/
I think the line "Is it worth all I have gained?" may mean that he has gotten closer to God sometime before this struggle, and this addiction is hindering that/separating him from God. He is torn between following God and fighting desire, and giving in to temptation and drifting away from God. ("Innocence" and "instinct", maybe? interesting...) I hope you don't mind me interjecting a quote from something I wrote a while back, but seeing as I'm viewing this song through the lens of my recent/ongoing experiences, maybe it'll help you see where I'm coming from. This is from a metaphorical short-story type thing I wrote:
"The light has grown slightly, but so has the pain. I reach for the wall to steady myself and feel the worm-gel ooze around my fingers. I draw my glistening hand to my heart; at once the salve begins to ease the pain, but my comfort is quickly overshadowed by the sudden realization that the light has once again shrunk away. An agonized wail escapes my throat as I begin to understand - there is no easy way out of this, no matter how I choose to go about my journey. If I tear myself away and move toward the light, there is hope, but pain. If I stay here, there is comfort, but despair. Many times I have told myself - and I still believe - that hope is better than comfort, and that the pain will fade once I have gone far enough. Yet it is so hard, when the days seem so long, and when the pain intensifies until it is all I can think about."
(that was longer than I thought...) But anyway, hopefully you see what I'm getting at. (the "worm gel", btw, is an idea I got from Ted Dekker's books, and I used it to represent addiction.)
One more note:
"It's nothing... it's everything..."
"It's nothing" may indicate that other people, if they knew about this struggle, wouldn't understand/see it as anything major. Another personal thought here, but I think it could be something that's not so obviously wrong/sinful, yet it goes against the singer's conscience/interferes with his relationship to God. "It's everything" means that though other people might see it as nothing - and maybe it should be - it defines his life and how he lives.
The way I interpret this song is pretty much the same as fireToSteel0423's interpretation - that is, the song is about some form of addiction. Here's how I see a few more of the lines...
"All the pain, I want it to end But I want it again"
"Still the same, pursuing pain Is it worth all I have gained?" /I'm pretty sure that's what the lyrics in the booklet say/
I think the line "Is it worth all I have gained?" may mean that he has gotten closer to God sometime before this struggle, and this addiction is hindering that/separating him from God. He is torn between following God and fighting desire, and giving in to temptation and drifting away from God. ("Innocence" and "instinct", maybe? interesting...) I hope you don't mind me interjecting a quote from something I wrote a while back, but seeing as I'm viewing this song through the lens of my recent/ongoing experiences, maybe it'll help you see where I'm coming from. This is from a metaphorical short-story type thing I wrote: "The light has grown slightly, but so has the pain. I reach for the wall to steady myself and feel the worm-gel ooze around my fingers. I draw my glistening hand to my heart; at once the salve begins to ease the pain, but my comfort is quickly overshadowed by the sudden realization that the light has once again shrunk away. An agonized wail escapes my throat as I begin to understand - there is no easy way out of this, no matter how I choose to go about my journey. If I tear myself away and move toward the light, there is hope, but pain. If I stay here, there is comfort, but despair. Many times I have told myself - and I still believe - that hope is better than comfort, and that the pain will fade once I have gone far enough. Yet it is so hard, when the days seem so long, and when the pain intensifies until it is all I can think about." (that was longer than I thought...) But anyway, hopefully you see what I'm getting at. (the "worm gel", btw, is an idea I got from Ted Dekker's books, and I used it to represent addiction.)
One more note: "It's nothing... it's everything..." "It's nothing" may indicate that other people, if they knew about this struggle, wouldn't understand/see it as anything major. Another personal thought here, but I think it could be something that's not so obviously wrong/sinful, yet it goes against the singer's conscience/interferes with his relationship to God. "It's everything" means that though other people might see it as nothing - and maybe it should be - it defines his life and how he lives.
did that make any sense at all?