I rediscovered this song recently when I was sorting out my CDs..and I can honestly say that I've played it every day since..It sums up perfectly how I feel about myself/my relationship. Insecurity, paranoia, self-deprication.. it's all there, explicitly. I wake up every day on the verge of an anxiety attack because I feel completely unstable in my relationship. I constantly compare myself to other girls - girls on television, girls on the tube, girls at my work/university. I'm ashamed of my past, and I hate who I am.
Someone commented and said that they believed she was being treated badly by her boyfriend. I don't think she's being treated badly at all - I think the lyrics suggest that this is her problem with herself manifesting itself into her relationship. Her insecurity has led her to think he's sleeping with her friend - but importantly she has no proof.. she just thinks it. I feel that about any female that my boyfriend comes into contact with. I realise it's irrational, and I know that he wouldn't - but I still feel it. I constantly question why he loves me - and sometimes I even try to convince HIM that he doesn't. I think of all the reasons why he shouldn't love me, and put them to him. And no matter how much he tries to convince me, how much he tells me, how much sweet shit he does to prove himself - it's never enough. The more reassurance I get, the more I need..
This song is amazing.. When I start to feel like a freak, or like I'm insane it makes me realise that I'm not the only one who is feeling like this, and it's very comforting.
I rediscovered this song recently when I was sorting out my CDs..and I can honestly say that I've played it every day since..It sums up perfectly how I feel about myself/my relationship. Insecurity, paranoia, self-deprication.. it's all there, explicitly. I wake up every day on the verge of an anxiety attack because I feel completely unstable in my relationship. I constantly compare myself to other girls - girls on television, girls on the tube, girls at my work/university. I'm ashamed of my past, and I hate who I am.
Someone commented and said that they believed she was being treated badly by her boyfriend. I don't think she's being treated badly at all - I think the lyrics suggest that this is her problem with herself manifesting itself into her relationship. Her insecurity has led her to think he's sleeping with her friend - but importantly she has no proof.. she just thinks it. I feel that about any female that my boyfriend comes into contact with. I realise it's irrational, and I know that he wouldn't - but I still feel it. I constantly question why he loves me - and sometimes I even try to convince HIM that he doesn't. I think of all the reasons why he shouldn't love me, and put them to him. And no matter how much he tries to convince me, how much he tells me, how much sweet shit he does to prove himself - it's never enough. The more reassurance I get, the more I need..
This song is amazing.. When I start to feel like a freak, or like I'm insane it makes me realise that I'm not the only one who is feeling like this, and it's very comforting.