It sounds to me like a bad relationship with his father (possibly physically or emotionally abusive) cuz he talks about being "taken out" for his father(?) to "make a point"... ... and how it's effected him... it pisses him off that his father doesn't care about him or his music which is the most important thing to him... and now he's REALLY hard on himself cuz he talks about "not having a throat" and "effing up lines"... Sounds like he had a really hard time dealing with everything... possibly considering killing himself cuz he talks about, "a book of thoughts that could take from his life" (suicide letter?) and seems like he fought the urges to end things when he talks about, "having to fight, to just make it through the night and survive" ... it also sounds like he wants to confront his dad about everything ("So where's your head, and all your heart? I've got a plan to make this work, but I can't bring myself to try") but he just can't do it and it frustrates him....
i don't know... i could be WAY off but thats what it sounds like to me
Ok so here's my guess...
It sounds to me like a bad relationship with his father (possibly physically or emotionally abusive) cuz he talks about being "taken out" for his father(?) to "make a point"... ... and how it's effected him... it pisses him off that his father doesn't care about him or his music which is the most important thing to him... and now he's REALLY hard on himself cuz he talks about "not having a throat" and "effing up lines"... Sounds like he had a really hard time dealing with everything... possibly considering killing himself cuz he talks about, "a book of thoughts that could take from his life" (suicide letter?) and seems like he fought the urges to end things when he talks about, "having to fight, to just make it through the night and survive" ... it also sounds like he wants to confront his dad about everything ("So where's your head, and all your heart? I've got a plan to make this work, but I can't bring myself to try") but he just can't do it and it frustrates him....
i don't know... i could be WAY off but thats what it sounds like to me
i think it's probably about his mum because she'd rather he went to college. or she did at the time anyway, according to aj.
i think it's probably about his mum because she'd rather he went to college. or she did at the time anyway, according to aj.