I just read the first 4 pages and then pages 10 & 11... and all people seem to care about it coke vs. bulemia. WHO CARES? Let me tell you, I live in new york... and have had experience with both "addictions" (personally and through close friends) and it could certainly be either, I think it's coke but that's not the point. It's what you want it to be, how it applies to your life, through your addictions and problems because then it is easier to interpret the song if you can kind of apply it to your situation. There's more to this song then interpreting what precise addiction the girl has. Also, self destruction is an important part of it... but there are other aspects to this song.
These are the two stanzas i notice most when i listen-
"When everything is lonely
I can be my own best friend
Get a coffee and the paper
Have my own conversations
With the sidewalk and the pigeons
And my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening
By the morning looks like shit"
I certainly can't interpret this perfectly but I have some questions about it. It sounds great, being able to be your on best friend... what does that even mean? I was thinking perhaps loosing yourself in past nostalgia and longing. Or somehow being able to be o.k. alone. Being able to be happy alone, which would be great considering so many people rely on others for happiness. I remember seeing "Into the Wild" a few years ago, and hearing christopher say "I will miss you too, but you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things." Yet, later saying "Happiness only real when shared." It seems like in this stanza, he knows he should be able to be his best friend, and shouldnt feel so miserable or depressed alone... but I dont know if he is able to be ok alone. After all, he ends the stanza with "The mask I polish in the evening/ By the morning looks like shit." Perhaps he thinks he should be alright alone but cant be... because of whatever, because of the drugs maybe or because he has problems with relationships, who knows.
And I know you have a heavy heart
I can feel it when we kiss
And many men stronger than me
Have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But me, I'm not a gamble
You can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening
By the morning won't exist"
This to me, is more perplexing than the previous stanza. I had a general concept of what a heavy heart is, but I looked it up anyway, to be sure. The source isnt exactly reliable (urbandictionary) but it seems to be right: "Melancholy; depressed; sad. When your heart is weighted down by sorrow. Often times a death, or when you are still in love with someone from the past." She is obviously still in love with someone from her past, or perhaps even had an unrequited love... but it seems as if she's gone through life (since this past love) dating guys who fall in love with her, yet she knows deep down she never had a chance at loving them back because she's so stuck on this past love. (sorry, that sentence was wicked syntactically fucked up. i'm tired. i'm lazy.) Anyway... he surmises this about her and is ok with it, because he doesn't seem to be looking for love (or maybe he is but is incredibly hopeless and assumes it cant come from her). Rather, perhaps someone to keep him from being lonely (which further confirms he can't be ok by himself) and someone to do drugs with (I'm a cartoon, you're a full moon, let's stay up?)...
It's obvious they're both suffering from some kind of pain, that they hide from with drugs and hide from with their relationship. Her misery seems to sprout from her past love lost, and it seems uncertain where his sprouts from. He even says he doesn't know:
And I'm not sure what the trouble was
That started all of this
The reasons all have run away
But the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend
But it is one way to live
Because what is simple in the moonlight
By the morning never is
I wonder where his heartache has originated from. I guess that's not important but rather what he is going to do about it, if anything.
I just read the first 4 pages and then pages 10 & 11... and all people seem to care about it coke vs. bulemia. WHO CARES? Let me tell you, I live in new york... and have had experience with both "addictions" (personally and through close friends) and it could certainly be either, I think it's coke but that's not the point. It's what you want it to be, how it applies to your life, through your addictions and problems because then it is easier to interpret the song if you can kind of apply it to your situation. There's more to this song then interpreting what precise addiction the girl has. Also, self destruction is an important part of it... but there are other aspects to this song.
These are the two stanzas i notice most when i listen-
"When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend Get a coffee and the paper Have my own conversations With the sidewalk and the pigeons And my window reflection The mask I polish in the evening By the morning looks like shit"
I certainly can't interpret this perfectly but I have some questions about it. It sounds great, being able to be your on best friend... what does that even mean? I was thinking perhaps loosing yourself in past nostalgia and longing. Or somehow being able to be o.k. alone. Being able to be happy alone, which would be great considering so many people rely on others for happiness. I remember seeing "Into the Wild" a few years ago, and hearing christopher say "I will miss you too, but you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things." Yet, later saying "Happiness only real when shared." It seems like in this stanza, he knows he should be able to be his best friend, and shouldnt feel so miserable or depressed alone... but I dont know if he is able to be ok alone. After all, he ends the stanza with "The mask I polish in the evening/ By the morning looks like shit." Perhaps he thinks he should be alright alone but cant be... because of whatever, because of the drugs maybe or because he has problems with relationships, who knows.
And I know you have a heavy heart I can feel it when we kiss And many men stronger than me Have thrown their backs out trying to lift it But me, I'm not a gamble You can count on me to split The love I sell you in the evening By the morning won't exist"
This to me, is more perplexing than the previous stanza. I had a general concept of what a heavy heart is, but I looked it up anyway, to be sure. The source isnt exactly reliable (urbandictionary) but it seems to be right: "Melancholy; depressed; sad. When your heart is weighted down by sorrow. Often times a death, or when you are still in love with someone from the past." She is obviously still in love with someone from her past, or perhaps even had an unrequited love... but it seems as if she's gone through life (since this past love) dating guys who fall in love with her, yet she knows deep down she never had a chance at loving them back because she's so stuck on this past love. (sorry, that sentence was wicked syntactically fucked up. i'm tired. i'm lazy.) Anyway... he surmises this about her and is ok with it, because he doesn't seem to be looking for love (or maybe he is but is incredibly hopeless and assumes it cant come from her). Rather, perhaps someone to keep him from being lonely (which further confirms he can't be ok by himself) and someone to do drugs with (I'm a cartoon, you're a full moon, let's stay up?)...
It's obvious they're both suffering from some kind of pain, that they hide from with drugs and hide from with their relationship. Her misery seems to sprout from her past love lost, and it seems uncertain where his sprouts from. He even says he doesn't know:
And I'm not sure what the trouble was That started all of this The reasons all have run away But the feeling never did It's not something I would recommend But it is one way to live Because what is simple in the moonlight By the morning never is
I wonder where his heartache has originated from. I guess that's not important but rather what he is going to do about it, if anything.