Like most belly songs, this one is very difficult to interpret. Here's my best crack:
"Judas" is used here as a verb meaning "betray" (Judas betrays Jesus in the bible).
The singer has been been hurt and abused and so she's closed herself off to protect herself. I think "the scars of the drunks" means her scars caused by drunks in her life. She's covered the scars with a "blanket of gauze" and a "blanket of sighs."
Then she talks about a lady that "walks everywhere on her hands, doesn't trust where her feet want to take her." This is an allegory for not trusting yourself and not trusting your instincts. "This is the room where we met." In other words, this is the state I was in when you came into my life. She's crippled by the fear of "that moment" when you "wake up and no one is there." That is to say, the fear of being hurt again. "Judas my heart" means "betray me."
The key twist in the song, I think, is when she changes the words to
I'm afraid that I walk everywhere on my hands,
I don't trust where my feet want to take me.
Then a few lines later:
I say, "I" 'stead of "she."
Now you're here.
Once she recognizes that SHE is the lady that walks everywhere on her hands she can open up and let the person in. Instead of waking up and "no one is there," it's "Now you're here."
Beautiful song with a wonderfully crafted message.
Like most belly songs, this one is very difficult to interpret. Here's my best crack:
"Judas" is used here as a verb meaning "betray" (Judas betrays Jesus in the bible).
The singer has been been hurt and abused and so she's closed herself off to protect herself. I think "the scars of the drunks" means her scars caused by drunks in her life. She's covered the scars with a "blanket of gauze" and a "blanket of sighs."
Then she talks about a lady that "walks everywhere on her hands, doesn't trust where her feet want to take her." This is an allegory for not trusting yourself and not trusting your instincts. "This is the room where we met." In other words, this is the state I was in when you came into my life. She's crippled by the fear of "that moment" when you "wake up and no one is there." That is to say, the fear of being hurt again. "Judas my heart" means "betray me."
The key twist in the song, I think, is when she changes the words to I'm afraid that I walk everywhere on my hands, I don't trust where my feet want to take me.
Then a few lines later:
I say, "I" 'stead of "she." Now you're here.
Once she recognizes that SHE is the lady that walks everywhere on her hands she can open up and let the person in. Instead of waking up and "no one is there," it's "Now you're here."
Beautiful song with a wonderfully crafted message.