I personally think this song might be about wanting to try commiting suicide/dying because of the unability to deal with negative emotions a person has when the relationship comes to the end and in order to get the attention from a person who seems not to care anymore.
"I leave the gas on, walk the alleys in the dark
sleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlocked
I'm weaving a rope and, running all the red lights
did I get your attention cause I'm sending all the signs"
She might be doing these things to die, not to die, only getting close to dying, to get someone's attention. She thinks that the person she turns to doesn't care for her, so she's trying to get his attention by doing all those risky things.
There's "your favorite shade of black, you best prepare a speech"
And it should be "PICK your favourite shade of black, you best prepare a speech".
And this line means that she's expecting a funeral of herself and tells the person she was turning to before what to do during this ceremony, including saying "something funny", "something sweet" but not mentioning about loving her, because that would make her wish she hadn't died.
"Cause I'm still breathing
And we've been dead for a while
this sickness has no cure
we're going down for sure"
I'm not sure about the chorus. I think the first two lines mean that she's struggling to tell that person that it's not too late (she's still breathing) to turn things over, to make up what's been broken. But if that's what is means, then it's weird that she said "this sickness has no cure (...) because that means there's no hope, and that it IS too late. That's why I'm not sure about it.
Oh, and I think it is "already lost a grip on this abandoned ship" instead of "already lost a grip best abandoned ship".
"Maybe I was too pale, mabye I was too fat
maybe you had better, better luck in the sack
no formal education and I swore way to much
but I swear you didn't care cause we were in love"
These lines, for me, show that the reason for her despair is the ending or broken relationship. The person she's turning to for attention is her boyfriend most probably. She is wondering what made him stop loving her (or stop paying attention), she guesses it was her imperfection. Still, she thought it was alright for him as he loved her.
"So as I write this letter and shed my last tear
its all for the better than we END this year (it's end, not had)
lets close this chapter, say one last prayer
but don't say that you loved me"
She tells about writing a goodbye letter and this is what the form of this song is. She "sheds her last tears" because she's expecting death. She is somehow glad that it's over, probably she's had enough of all these doubts. She repeats "don't say that you loved me" because if she finds out he loved her though, she might find her death was pointless. Find out on the other side, of course, after she dies.
I think it's a very beautiful song. I wish it could be a single. It is so deep and so different from the singles she's been releasing.
So, Reevys, we see the meaning of this song in a quite similar way :) So for me you're not wrong :)
I know I've wrote a lot, so thank you to everyone who managed to read it :)
I personally think this song might be about wanting to try commiting suicide/dying because of the unability to deal with negative emotions a person has when the relationship comes to the end and in order to get the attention from a person who seems not to care anymore.
"I leave the gas on, walk the alleys in the dark sleep with candles burning, I leave the door unlocked I'm weaving a rope and, running all the red lights did I get your attention cause I'm sending all the signs"
She might be doing these things to die, not to die, only getting close to dying, to get someone's attention. She thinks that the person she turns to doesn't care for her, so she's trying to get his attention by doing all those risky things.
There's "your favorite shade of black, you best prepare a speech" And it should be "PICK your favourite shade of black, you best prepare a speech". And this line means that she's expecting a funeral of herself and tells the person she was turning to before what to do during this ceremony, including saying "something funny", "something sweet" but not mentioning about loving her, because that would make her wish she hadn't died.
"Cause I'm still breathing And we've been dead for a while this sickness has no cure we're going down for sure"
I'm not sure about the chorus. I think the first two lines mean that she's struggling to tell that person that it's not too late (she's still breathing) to turn things over, to make up what's been broken. But if that's what is means, then it's weird that she said "this sickness has no cure (...) because that means there's no hope, and that it IS too late. That's why I'm not sure about it.
Oh, and I think it is "already lost a grip on this abandoned ship" instead of "already lost a grip best abandoned ship".
"Maybe I was too pale, mabye I was too fat maybe you had better, better luck in the sack no formal education and I swore way to much but I swear you didn't care cause we were in love"
These lines, for me, show that the reason for her despair is the ending or broken relationship. The person she's turning to for attention is her boyfriend most probably. She is wondering what made him stop loving her (or stop paying attention), she guesses it was her imperfection. Still, she thought it was alright for him as he loved her.
"So as I write this letter and shed my last tear its all for the better than we END this year (it's end, not had) lets close this chapter, say one last prayer but don't say that you loved me"
She tells about writing a goodbye letter and this is what the form of this song is. She "sheds her last tears" because she's expecting death. She is somehow glad that it's over, probably she's had enough of all these doubts. She repeats "don't say that you loved me" because if she finds out he loved her though, she might find her death was pointless. Find out on the other side, of course, after she dies.
I think it's a very beautiful song. I wish it could be a single. It is so deep and so different from the singles she's been releasing.
So, Reevys, we see the meaning of this song in a quite similar way :) So for me you're not wrong :)
I know I've wrote a lot, so thank you to everyone who managed to read it :)