I can relate to this song loads as I suffer from severe depression and have a secret fear of getting better and being happy.
"I could be golden I could be glowing I could be freedom
but that could be boring"
-She could be saying that a life with contentment and happiness could be boring, that everyone need a little drama and conflict in their lives.
"sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true
I sabotage myself for fear of losing you".
-Maybe she thinks she's not meant to be happy and that she needs to sabotage herself before she gets her hopes up and all her happiness falls apart. As said before ^^ When you're on top theres alot further to fall. Also, 'fear of losing you' when you're ill you have a support system maybe she's become too attached to people around her, that support her and doesn't want them to leave her if she gets better.
I can relate to this song loads as I suffer from severe depression and have a secret fear of getting better and being happy.
"I could be golden I could be glowing I could be freedom but that could be boring"
-She could be saying that a life with contentment and happiness could be boring, that everyone need a little drama and conflict in their lives.
"sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true I sabotage myself for fear of losing you".
-Maybe she thinks she's not meant to be happy and that she needs to sabotage herself before she gets her hopes up and all her happiness falls apart. As said before ^^ When you're on top theres alot further to fall. Also, 'fear of losing you' when you're ill you have a support system maybe she's become too attached to people around her, that support her and doesn't want them to leave her if she gets better.