The song is clearly about the impending death of his mother and involves the way he is coping with it, being around 'friends' socially and how he is pretending to be dealing with it but really he is a mess. It touches on how his friends are interacting with him , they are advising him to get fcked (in britain this means getting wasted drug of choice mentioned is speed) which he does with his friends to feel better, but as the sunrises as he is high surrounded by friends, he feels completely alone .
First line is about the pretence of being ok : distorted smile is about fake pretence.
Second line is about being asked the question over by different people of how long his mother has to
live. The last part of the verse are his realisation that his friends can't help him deal with it he has to be honest to deal with it but he cant be open about how he is falling apart
Get fcked stud is time to kill, is the advise to take his mind off it. Only you see the sunset on amphetamines means while he is high with his friends he knows he is the only one bearing the cross of his mothers illness.
The middle part seems to be more ambiguous, like a rant at god, maybe because he feels he has no control over what is happening, he feels like a burden on his friends (all hands on the courtesy c*nt. And the admission to himself and god that he is a mess (im all at sea) which he hasnt been able to admit to his peers, the contrast between that line and distorted smile.
The song is clearly about the impending death of his mother and involves the way he is coping with it, being around 'friends' socially and how he is pretending to be dealing with it but really he is a mess. It touches on how his friends are interacting with him , they are advising him to get fcked (in britain this means getting wasted drug of choice mentioned is speed) which he does with his friends to feel better, but as the sunrises as he is high surrounded by friends, he feels completely alone . First line is about the pretence of being ok : distorted smile is about fake pretence. Second line is about being asked the question over by different people of how long his mother has to live. The last part of the verse are his realisation that his friends can't help him deal with it he has to be honest to deal with it but he cant be open about how he is falling apart Get fcked stud is time to kill, is the advise to take his mind off it. Only you see the sunset on amphetamines means while he is high with his friends he knows he is the only one bearing the cross of his mothers illness. The middle part seems to be more ambiguous, like a rant at god, maybe because he feels he has no control over what is happening, he feels like a burden on his friends (all hands on the courtesy c*nt. And the admission to himself and god that he is a mess (im all at sea) which he hasnt been able to admit to his peers, the contrast between that line and distorted smile.