I Caught Myself Lyrics

Lyric discussion by sourstraws214 

Cover art for I Caught Myself lyrics by Paramore

Hmm, I find this song in Bella's perspective, the same as with “Decode”. Edward pushed her: pushed her boundaries and her expectations, pushed her buttons, pushed her to her limits emotionally and especially every time he pushed her away against his will and hers. It’s an utterly addictive dynamic to their relationship. Their relationship blossomed & he was inexplicably drawn to her even though he could of have had anyone he wanted and he chose this regular, unordinary human, Bella.

At the end of Twilight, she asked him to never leave her and he promised. In New Moon, he goes against his promise. He wanted to protect her but even with him gone, Bella cant shake his gravitational pull he has on her! She hears his voice throughout the book when she does reckless things. “You got it, you got it, Some kind of magic, Hypnotic, hypnotic, You're leaving me breathless, I hate this, I hate this, You're not the one I believe in, With god as my witness” .. She knows she should of never thought to do what she did but she did it to hear his voice again, to somehow have him with her through the pain of it all. She leans and finds comfort with Jacob, her good friend. He loves Bella, he wants her as his girlfriend but she loves Edward and she knows that even if she tried to move on with Jacob, to try to be happy with him without Edward, it would never compare to what she had with Edward. Something she would never get over! Now she finds a similar pull to Jacob because he makes her feel better, but the things they do bring Edward back to her. She hears his voice when he is around but he isn’t the one for her and she knows it! “Don't know what I want, but I know it's not you, Keep pushing and pulling me down, When I know in my heart it's not you”

Pretty much the song jumbles meanings of whole Edward/Bella story. Hailey’s wordage can be misunderstood. But pretty much, it comes down to the hate relationship in the beginning to the blossomed love. Neither Edward or Bella expected it and they both fought against the urges. In New Moon, those urges are freed for some time and even with them away they can’t stop that shocking, gravitational pull they have on one another. Bella’s hearing the words of Edward throughout the book, she knows its his voice but its not really him but she longs for it. “Don't know what I want, but I know it's not you Keep pushing and pulling me down, Down to you, but I don't know what I want”