Wait And Bleed

Okay...So, I am going to walk you through my thoughts, on this song...be amazed and watch the story unfold, twist and turn.

I felt the hate rise up in me (self explainatory) Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves (clearing leaves from a headstone) I wander out where you can't see (out of his mind) Inside my shell I wait and bleed (feels guilty for something he has done, apparently to this dead person, whose grave for whom he's standing)

GOODBYE!! (speaking to dead person)

I wipe it off the tile, the light is brighter this time (again clearing the leaves, he's been here before, because it is lighter out, this time)

Everything is 3-D blasphemy (we will cover this line later)

My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up (eyes are red with rage, and gold...maybe for money...and this is unsettling, because of his hair satdning on end)

This is not the way I pictured me (he is not who he thought he was...or would be)

I can't control my shakes! (He is not in control of himself)

How the hell did I get here? (doesn't know why he visits the grave)

Something about this, so very wrong (he has a bad feeling about the situation, ie. being obessed with visiting this grave)

I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this (self explainatory)

Is it a dream or a memory? (he remembers something, but is unsure if it is real or dream...this line is leading into the backstory...or excuse given by the narrator)

(start the flashback/backstory) GET OUTTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS! (memory, whether real or not has apparently consumed him, emotionally)

Why didn't I see this? (doesn't understand why he is seeing this vision...or the way he feels about the situation)

I'm a victim--Manchurian Candidate (BINGO!!!! He's a Manchurian Candidate, i.e. a brainwashed assasin. It is now clear, he is here because he murdered this person, against his will, mind you, because he was brainwashed to kill this person)

I-HAVE-SINNED-BY-JUST/Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away (he is struggling to deal with this fact, as he never meant to kill the person, so he states, but rather was brain washed to do so)

GOODBYE!!!!!!! (again, speaking to dead pesron)

You haven't learned a thing I haven't changed a thing The flesh was in my bones The pain is always free (this probably the most difficult part of the song to transalate. However, I feel, he is now trying to justify, to himself and the dead person, the killing of said person, while still letting the person know he feels guilty about killing the person. This is probably theraputic to him)

You haven't learned a thing (basically, the person had this coming, because someone wanted this person dead...I wonder who?)

I haven't changed a thing (however, he or she feels the killing of the person did society no good...also, this may be leading to something else)

The flesh was in my bones (yes, he is admitting to the person underground, that he in fact KNOWS he killed this person) (So, now, one must question the whole brain washing excuse that he has been making, but this is an open ended...)

The pain is always free (the guilt is now consuming the narrotor)

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU!!!!! (given the above, one would be lead to believe, that the person in which he murdered has revenge owed to them, for the murder)

So, we now have the story from the narrator's point of view. however, this is a very biased story, told by the narrator. A Manchurian Candidate is one who is brainwashed to kill someone beyond the conrtol of the Manchurian Candidate. However, a Manchurian Candidate, also, must not remember that he or she ever commited such a crime. So, this being said, from the following lines, we can assume that the narroator did, in fact, willing kill the person he or she is visiting...

I felt the hate rise up in me Everything is 3-D blasphemy (lying to his or her self about the justice of the crime, initially) This is not the way I pictured me I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this I-HAVE-SINNED-BY-JUST/Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

...and is now consumed with guilt over the whole thing, although he/or she thought that no remorse would be felt, because he or she considered the murdered not worthy of living, referenced in the following lines...

Inside my shell I wait and bleed Why didn't I see this? I haven't changed a thing The pain is always free

...So, basically, this person knowingly and willingly went out and murdered this person, thinking he or she was doing the world a service. However, he or she is now consumed with guilt, and is basically saying that he or she put the idea in his/her own head. and the whole brainwashing thing was just a theraputic way of dealing with the fact that the narrator is guilty of murder, in the first degree.

it's a very complicated song...well written...very Edgar Allen Poe(ish) ...and this is strictly my POV on the song and could be completely incorrect...but I thought I would offer up the idea. Sorry for the long post, but it was needed, for this thread, i think.

Peace out.