Yeah I agree, it sounds like a woman being self conscious and vulnerable deeply dissatisfied with her regular life and she is turning to fantasy so she can wear a plastic smile. Melancholy morning after feelings. Regreting that she had the fantasy and that she needs it. She is fantasizing that the one she was spending her evening with was nearly in love with her as she is with him.
Yeah I agree, it sounds like a woman being self conscious and vulnerable deeply dissatisfied with her regular life and she is turning to fantasy so she can wear a plastic smile. Melancholy morning after feelings. Regreting that she had the fantasy and that she needs it. She is fantasizing that the one she was spending her evening with was nearly in love with her as she is with him.