I think he's talking about how the "structured life" consisting of a daily commute, a 9 to 5 job and all the other societal expectations are driving him nuts and how he longs for something else. he doens't want to be at the top of the structure any more than he wants to be a part of it. he wants another option and he misses the relationship he once held with a girl which also contributes to his state of mind. he must have mistakenly taken a train to hobokken and come across a new form of music that he wants to pour his soul into.
I think he's talking about how the "structured life" consisting of a daily commute, a 9 to 5 job and all the other societal expectations are driving him nuts and how he longs for something else. he doens't want to be at the top of the structure any more than he wants to be a part of it. he wants another option and he misses the relationship he once held with a girl which also contributes to his state of mind. he must have mistakenly taken a train to hobokken and come across a new form of music that he wants to pour his soul into.