This song means so much more to me now than it ever did...My partner took his life 3 days after I left due to circumstances that gave me no choice. He had burned this song and many others onto CD's and left them on top of our puter. He had in many ways 'screamed his lungs out' to try to get to me....but I didn't get it. I didn't understand how desperate he was. I will never get over it. 'here I go, so dishonestly, leave a note, for you my only one'....Dishonestly, because he knew he was taking away my right to ever try to fix things. He was leaving me to battle the pain he had battled all his life. Because of his shame at leaving this way, because he gave up, and because he left a note instead of voicing the words that would have had me running to him in a second to stop him.
To my babe, I love and miss you every single minute of every single day...and I'm so sorry I didn't hear you when you 'tried to get to me'. I will love you for as long as I live and your memory lives on in our son and in my shattered heart...
This song means so much more to me now than it ever did...My partner took his life 3 days after I left due to circumstances that gave me no choice. He had burned this song and many others onto CD's and left them on top of our puter. He had in many ways 'screamed his lungs out' to try to get to me....but I didn't get it. I didn't understand how desperate he was. I will never get over it. 'here I go, so dishonestly, leave a note, for you my only one'....Dishonestly, because he knew he was taking away my right to ever try to fix things. He was leaving me to battle the pain he had battled all his life. Because of his shame at leaving this way, because he gave up, and because he left a note instead of voicing the words that would have had me running to him in a second to stop him.
To my babe, I love and miss you every single minute of every single day...and I'm so sorry I didn't hear you when you 'tried to get to me'. I will love you for as long as I live and your memory lives on in our son and in my shattered heart...