it seems as though its partially about the same woman hes speaking of in snuff and gehenna,
'And My Face and My Soul always wear me thin - always under control'
he seems to be able to control his emotions, at least fairly well enough, that he can blanket his emotions for her
But the longest hours you’ll have in your life
Are the ones you sit through to know if you’re right
So I’ll wait, but I pray that I’m wrong
Because I think I know what’s going on
this seems that hes waiting for her to make up her mind, to believe that what is happening is truly going on, and to succumb to her feelings, but his paranoia shows through and he worries that she could be just using him, even if not for monetary gain, just for her own personal needs, perhaps.
'
So Let Me Get This Straight… the only will is my own
I do whatever I want and stay alone
All my decisions make it untouchable and tainted
I’m gonna suffer for the rest of my life'
it seems she has asked him to fight for her, give her some semblance of hope and faith, and he feels that he shouldnt have to give her that, and that her faith should come from inside herself, and not from him.
'
STAY - You don’t always know where you stand
‘Til you know that you won’t run away
There’s something inside me that feels
Like Breathing in Sulfur…'
again, it seems that she does not know how to feel, and will back away and hide from him, until she feels so strongly about him that she refuses to hide away anymore,
thus in turn giving him false assumptions to her motives,
it seems its driving him insane to see her flipflop on her emotions, the same way it seems hes doing.
'My Life is undone - and I’m a sinner to most but a sage to some
And my Gods are Untrue - I’m probably wrong, but I’m better than you
And the longest hours I’ve had in my life
Were the ones I went through to know I was right
So I’m safe, but I’m a little outside
I’m gonna laugh when I’m buried alive'
this verse draws away from that, and moves more into his own self, pretty much to the point, hes had to take a long road to discover himself,
it seems slightly to mirror some anger towards her,
he seems almost bragging to her that hes above her because of what hes found in himself..
it seems as though its partially about the same woman hes speaking of in snuff and gehenna,
'And My Face and My Soul always wear me thin - always under control' he seems to be able to control his emotions, at least fairly well enough, that he can blanket his emotions for her
But the longest hours you’ll have in your life Are the ones you sit through to know if you’re right So I’ll wait, but I pray that I’m wrong Because I think I know what’s going on
this seems that hes waiting for her to make up her mind, to believe that what is happening is truly going on, and to succumb to her feelings, but his paranoia shows through and he worries that she could be just using him, even if not for monetary gain, just for her own personal needs, perhaps.
' So Let Me Get This Straight… the only will is my own I do whatever I want and stay alone All my decisions make it untouchable and tainted I’m gonna suffer for the rest of my life'
it seems she has asked him to fight for her, give her some semblance of hope and faith, and he feels that he shouldnt have to give her that, and that her faith should come from inside herself, and not from him.
' STAY - You don’t always know where you stand ‘Til you know that you won’t run away There’s something inside me that feels Like Breathing in Sulfur…' again, it seems that she does not know how to feel, and will back away and hide from him, until she feels so strongly about him that she refuses to hide away anymore, thus in turn giving him false assumptions to her motives, it seems its driving him insane to see her flipflop on her emotions, the same way it seems hes doing.
'My Life is undone - and I’m a sinner to most but a sage to some And my Gods are Untrue - I’m probably wrong, but I’m better than you And the longest hours I’ve had in my life Were the ones I went through to know I was right So I’m safe, but I’m a little outside I’m gonna laugh when I’m buried alive' this verse draws away from that, and moves more into his own self, pretty much to the point, hes had to take a long road to discover himself, it seems slightly to mirror some anger towards her, he seems almost bragging to her that hes above her because of what hes found in himself..