To me this song is about Smog becoming Bill Callahan and the transition from the obscure/oblique monkier of the band name (for a band which never really existed, because all it ever really was is Bill). So he's saying I was doing this thing all by myself, and being as open and as clear as I could hope to be, but still hiding behind the 'Smog' name. At the end he says "it's time I have the world my light" meaning, it's time to just be myself and take responsibility for the things he says - in counterpoint to Vessel in Vain's "I can't be held responsibile...".
To me this song is about Smog becoming Bill Callahan and the transition from the obscure/oblique monkier of the band name (for a band which never really existed, because all it ever really was is Bill). So he's saying I was doing this thing all by myself, and being as open and as clear as I could hope to be, but still hiding behind the 'Smog' name. At the end he says "it's time I have the world my light" meaning, it's time to just be myself and take responsibility for the things he says - in counterpoint to Vessel in Vain's "I can't be held responsibile...".