B Life?) that would provide him comfort when his 'noise' became overwhelming.
But he goes on to sing, 'my coming here was a terrible fall as we crept like thieves along your bedroom hall' - kreeping like thieves could represent an action that needs to be hidden, perhaps a sexual act? We already have the reference to the bed - he says to the girl, 'I was charming you at best' - perhaps this need to feel comfort in the arms of a loved one has led to something more, something which he would regret. Perhaps this 'hidden act' is the comfort that he thinks he desires, and not just a product of getting 'carried-away' - the acts carried out in the 'bed' could be his comfort.
There is another song on A--B Life called 'I never Said I was Brave' which has a similar message
"I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again"
He had convinced himself that he would find comfort in the bed of this person, but he had been deceiving himself.
Whatever it is that is holding him back (I think its lust but it could be interpreted in diffirent ways) has become an addiction addiction, Like the carnival game with the bottleneck and rubber ring... where even if you win, even then you don't win.' - no matter how hard he tries, it always takes hold of him.
What I love about the song though (Leaf) even though he becomes so frustrated its not all doom and gloom, there is hope! Its found in the first Verse, "The hopelessness of living...and the childishness of suicide!"But there's a call to love my brother that can never be destroyed."
No matter what life throws at him, no matter how he despises his OWN actions and even has thoughts of suicide, he pushes that false thinking aside and acknowledges the truth, that he is called to love his brothers. This is what he persues and uses as an encouragement, deep down in his heart this is what he desires, its his core purpose - even though sometimes he gives himself over to temptation and evils of the world, his essence, his core... is selflessness, and thats the purity of heart that he desires.
[Let he without sin cast the first stone - John 8:7]">
Leaf Meanings & Lyrics Discussion by wakethesilence | SongMeanings
B Life?) that would provide him comfort when his 'noise' became overwhelming.
But he goes on to sing, 'my coming here was a terrible fall as we crept like thieves along your bedroom hall' - kreeping like thieves could represent an action that needs to be hidden, perhaps a sexual act? We already have the reference to the bed - he says to the girl, 'I was charming you at best' - perhaps this need to feel comfort in the arms of a loved one has led to something more, something which he would regret. Perhaps this 'hidden act' is the comfort that he thinks he desires, and not just a product of getting 'carried-away' - the acts carried out in the 'bed' could be his comfort.
There is another song on A--B Life called 'I never Said I was Brave' which has a similar message
"I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again"
He had convinced himself that he would find comfort in the bed of this person, but he had been deceiving himself.
Whatever it is that is holding him back (I think its lust but it could be interpreted in diffirent ways) has become an addiction addiction, Like the carnival game with the bottleneck and rubber ring... where even if you win, even then you don't win.' - no matter how hard he tries, it always takes hold of him.
What I love about the song though (Leaf) even though he becomes so frustrated its not all doom and gloom, there is hope! Its found in the first Verse, "The hopelessness of living...and the childishness of suicide!"But there's a call to love my brother that can never be destroyed."
No matter what life throws at him, no matter how he despises his OWN actions and even has thoughts of suicide, he pushes that false thinking aside and acknowledges the truth, that he is called to love his brothers. This is what he persues and uses as an encouragement, deep down in his heart this is what he desires, its his core purpose - even though sometimes he gives himself over to temptation and evils of the world, his essence, his core... is selflessness, and thats the purity of heart that he desires.
[Let he without sin cast the first stone - John 8:7]" />
I think this song is about desire and emotional need breaking ones self-control. There is a reference to Søren Kierkegaards writing, 'Purity of heart is to will one thing' - the song is about not wanting to desire/will temporary fixes but rather to will a pure heart that doesnt lower its standars to satisfy an impulse.
Aaron (the author) sings, 'If you're hanging from the branches, licking honey from the leaves' - the honey represents the 'temporary fix' but once the honey is gone, you're either left there hanging, or you fall down.
He also writes about how his pride often takes over, how when he is on stage 'however much I strut around... however loud I sing. The shining One inside me won't say anything.' - I think he is saying that his need to feel accepted, or appreciated as a musician or an intellectual is fulfilled by his originality, stage presence, loud voice shouting 'look at me!', but if all the focus is on him there is no room for the 'shining one' (God, "We know that He abides in us by the Spirit whom He has given us" 1 John 3:24,NKJV.) to speak, because all the focus is on Aaron.
The last verse is very chilling, in the first line, 'And you'll remind me how I said you were a quiet bed in all my noise to rest...' he could be singing about someone (possibly the same girl thats the subject of A-->B Life?) that would provide him comfort when his 'noise' became overwhelming.
But he goes on to sing, 'my coming here was a terrible fall as we crept like thieves along your bedroom hall' - kreeping like thieves could represent an action that needs to be hidden, perhaps a sexual act? We already have the reference to the bed - he says to the girl, 'I was charming you at best' - perhaps this need to feel comfort in the arms of a loved one has led to something more, something which he would regret. Perhaps this 'hidden act' is the comfort that he thinks he desires, and not just a product of getting 'carried-away' - the acts carried out in the 'bed' could be his comfort.
There is another song on A--B Life called 'I never Said I was Brave' which has a similar message
"I'll sing in silence, lay beside you
With my face there on your cheek
My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar-
I'll believe it's lies again"
He had convinced himself that he would find comfort in the bed of this person, but he had been deceiving himself.
Whatever it is that is holding him back (I think its lust but it could be interpreted in diffirent ways) has become an addiction addiction, Like the carnival game with the bottleneck and rubber ring... where even if you win, even then you don't win.' - no matter how hard he tries, it always takes hold of him.
What I love about the song though (Leaf) even though he becomes so frustrated its not all doom and gloom, there is hope! Its found in the first Verse, "The hopelessness of living...and the childishness of suicide!"But there's a call to love my brother that can never be destroyed."
No matter what life throws at him, no matter how he despises his OWN actions and even has thoughts of suicide, he pushes that false thinking aside and acknowledges the truth, that he is called to love his brothers. This is what he persues and uses as an encouragement, deep down in his heart this is what he desires, its his core purpose - even though sometimes he gives himself over to temptation and evils of the world, his essence, his core... is selflessness, and thats the purity of heart that he desires.
[Let he without sin cast the first stone - John 8:7]
I think this song is about desire and emotional need breaking ones self-control. There is a reference to Søren Kierkegaards writing, 'Purity of heart is to will one thing' - the song is about not wanting to desire/will temporary fixes but rather to will a pure heart that doesnt lower its standars to satisfy an impulse. Aaron (the author) sings, 'If you're hanging from the branches, licking honey from the leaves' - the honey represents the 'temporary fix' but once the honey is gone, you're either left there hanging, or you fall down.
He also writes about how his pride often takes over, how when he is on stage 'however much I strut around... however loud I sing. The shining One inside me won't say anything.' - I think he is saying that his need to feel accepted, or appreciated as a musician or an intellectual is fulfilled by his originality, stage presence, loud voice shouting 'look at me!', but if all the focus is on him there is no room for the 'shining one' (God, "We know that He abides in us by the Spirit whom He has given us" 1 John 3:24,NKJV.) to speak, because all the focus is on Aaron.
The last verse is very chilling, in the first line, 'And you'll remind me how I said you were a quiet bed in all my noise to rest...' he could be singing about someone (possibly the same girl thats the subject of A-->B Life?) that would provide him comfort when his 'noise' became overwhelming. But he goes on to sing, 'my coming here was a terrible fall as we crept like thieves along your bedroom hall' - kreeping like thieves could represent an action that needs to be hidden, perhaps a sexual act? We already have the reference to the bed - he says to the girl, 'I was charming you at best' - perhaps this need to feel comfort in the arms of a loved one has led to something more, something which he would regret. Perhaps this 'hidden act' is the comfort that he thinks he desires, and not just a product of getting 'carried-away' - the acts carried out in the 'bed' could be his comfort. There is another song on A--B Life called 'I never Said I was Brave' which has a similar message
"I'll sing in silence, lay beside you With my face there on your cheek My stomach swears there's comfort there In the warmth of the blankets on your bed My stomach's always been a liar- I'll believe it's lies again"
He had convinced himself that he would find comfort in the bed of this person, but he had been deceiving himself.
Whatever it is that is holding him back (I think its lust but it could be interpreted in diffirent ways) has become an addiction addiction, Like the carnival game with the bottleneck and rubber ring... where even if you win, even then you don't win.' - no matter how hard he tries, it always takes hold of him.
What I love about the song though (Leaf) even though he becomes so frustrated its not all doom and gloom, there is hope! Its found in the first Verse, "The hopelessness of living...and the childishness of suicide!"But there's a call to love my brother that can never be destroyed."
No matter what life throws at him, no matter how he despises his OWN actions and even has thoughts of suicide, he pushes that false thinking aside and acknowledges the truth, that he is called to love his brothers. This is what he persues and uses as an encouragement, deep down in his heart this is what he desires, its his core purpose - even though sometimes he gives himself over to temptation and evils of the world, his essence, his core... is selflessness, and thats the purity of heart that he desires.
[Let he without sin cast the first stone - John 8:7]