i think the emergency room is what he calls the point when hes so degected and broken down. so when he says he always finds love there it means that when hes the worst off he can find someone to love. hes not only emotionally wounded but hes self hatred also has left him pretty beaten up. the girl that he is in love with doesnt want him anymore and he tries to get rid of the thoughts of her but all of the things that happened in the past and the pictures arent allowing him to. i think the line " love lonelyness and nervous laughs" is refering to how he handles her
i think the emergency room is what he calls the point when hes so degected and broken down. so when he says he always finds love there it means that when hes the worst off he can find someone to love. hes not only emotionally wounded but hes self hatred also has left him pretty beaten up. the girl that he is in love with doesnt want him anymore and he tries to get rid of the thoughts of her but all of the things that happened in the past and the pictures arent allowing him to. i think the line " love lonelyness and nervous laughs" is refering to how he handles her