"What was not but could have been
was my obsession way back when
now I just remember this
what is not but could be if
what is not but could be if
we could be crossing
this abridged abyss into beginning
and failure's got you in its grasp
and you're reaching for your very last
vicious beginning"
i think this is talking about his previous drug use and overcoming it. that's what i got out of it at least. he could be crossing into a new "sober" life and he just remembers the times when he used to "be obsessed" and held in the grasp of drugs.
"What was not but could have been was my obsession way back when now I just remember this what is not but could be if
what is not but could be if we could be crossing this abridged abyss into beginning
and failure's got you in its grasp and you're reaching for your very last vicious beginning"
i think this is talking about his previous drug use and overcoming it. that's what i got out of it at least. he could be crossing into a new "sober" life and he just remembers the times when he used to "be obsessed" and held in the grasp of drugs.