this is just a song about her mexican boyfriend. shes decribing how important he was to her(enough to wear a dress a lot,circle days in the calender in red, write his name on the wall by her bed, and posibley smoke and do drugs/"my first cigarette and my first pill"). most likely her first boyfriend since she "boxed up her dolls and gave them away" meaning she said goodbye to her hildhood and grew up into a romantic phase.
Her boyfriend dies. possibly a car accident "a man drifted over the line,drove you away and a little girl out of her mind". She "left carnations and stone your place"/the place of the accident. friend and family usually do this where there is a car accident.
Now that he's dead she goes on to tell him that someone else will know her first kiss because he is dead/"holding that still".
this is just a song about her mexican boyfriend. shes decribing how important he was to her(enough to wear a dress a lot,circle days in the calender in red, write his name on the wall by her bed, and posibley smoke and do drugs/"my first cigarette and my first pill"). most likely her first boyfriend since she "boxed up her dolls and gave them away" meaning she said goodbye to her hildhood and grew up into a romantic phase.
Her boyfriend dies. possibly a car accident "a man drifted over the line,drove you away and a little girl out of her mind". She "left carnations and stone your place"/the place of the accident. friend and family usually do this where there is a car accident.
Now that he's dead she goes on to tell him that someone else will know her first kiss because he is dead/"holding that still".