I first thought it was about an abusive relationship and I think thats still a really good explanation.
but now for some reason I think the song is about not feeling like you deserve to be happy.
feeling like you're not a good enough person and you shouldn't be allowed to be happy.
like the line "torture me with all I wanted" I think is talking about how she desires something that most people wouldn't consider normal or moral so she souldn't be allowed to have good things.
I first thought it was about an abusive relationship and I think thats still a really good explanation. but now for some reason I think the song is about not feeling like you deserve to be happy.
feeling like you're not a good enough person and you shouldn't be allowed to be happy. like the line "torture me with all I wanted" I think is talking about how she desires something that most people wouldn't consider normal or moral so she souldn't be allowed to have good things.