I think it's about a guy who was in solid relationship, but felt claustrophobic or needed to be independent, or something of that nature, so he ended it. He did so completely suddenly "reading backwards i see/
where the attack was which in/real time came out of the blue". Perhaps it was a rash decision due to a change in life circumstances. Whatever the reason, he's realized his mistake as well as how much he hurt his girl and how he still loves her. Maybe he'd even deluded himself into thinking that this decision was good for her, and what she needed. Either way, he just wants her back.
I think it's about a guy who was in solid relationship, but felt claustrophobic or needed to be independent, or something of that nature, so he ended it. He did so completely suddenly "reading backwards i see/ where the attack was which in/real time came out of the blue". Perhaps it was a rash decision due to a change in life circumstances. Whatever the reason, he's realized his mistake as well as how much he hurt his girl and how he still loves her. Maybe he'd even deluded himself into thinking that this decision was good for her, and what she needed. Either way, he just wants her back.