The person's father has committed suicide, so they feel alone. They've probably lost their mother, but still wish they could show her their accomplishments. There is no comfort of home to return to. Death seems too ominous now, and so he hopes that when his own death comes, it comes fast.
The person's father has committed suicide, so they feel alone. They've probably lost their mother, but still wish they could show her their accomplishments. There is no comfort of home to return to. Death seems too ominous now, and so he hopes that when his own death comes, it comes fast.