My version of the song actually has the "bonus" cut into a seperate track so I don't have the 20mins of robot voice (damn).
The bonus track at the end is a personal story of AR's battle with depression which left him pretty screwed until he overcame it with the help of his friends, the four, each contributing something to his recovery.
He also became agoraphobic. hence the line about walking to the bodega for cigarettes almost causing him to faint.
It's a true story: He talks briedly about it on the Revenge of the Robots DVD and you can see how screwed up it made him.
It's an intensely personal song hence why he does it under his real name, thanking those that really may have saved his life. I always wonder if, in hindsight, he ever regretted opening up so publicly but this is probably one of my 5 favourite AR songs. I know a little where he's coming from and it's amazing to hear AR put into words the way you can get consumed without a hand to pull you out.
My version of the song actually has the "bonus" cut into a seperate track so I don't have the 20mins of robot voice (damn).
The bonus track at the end is a personal story of AR's battle with depression which left him pretty screwed until he overcame it with the help of his friends, the four, each contributing something to his recovery. He also became agoraphobic. hence the line about walking to the bodega for cigarettes almost causing him to faint.
It's a true story: He talks briedly about it on the Revenge of the Robots DVD and you can see how screwed up it made him.
It's an intensely personal song hence why he does it under his real name, thanking those that really may have saved his life. I always wonder if, in hindsight, he ever regretted opening up so publicly but this is probably one of my 5 favourite AR songs. I know a little where he's coming from and it's amazing to hear AR put into words the way you can get consumed without a hand to pull you out.