To me the artist is singing about themself in a still in a relationship that she is questioning. Perhaps they are back together after a recent break up:
" I miss you now like I should have missed you then." And she is questioning if being back together is something that is more harm than good or if it might work out. She is unable to sleep when she's sleeping next to her lover because she is thinking too much and questioning everything, she cant get relief and therefore cannot offer relief. She is too uptight and uncertain to really open herself or to give any kind of deep affection and emotion to her lover. : "I can't untangle what I feel and what would matter most I can't close an eye, can't close an eyelid...Now there's no point in reaching out for me
In the dark, I'm just no good at giving relief
In the dark, it won't be easy to find relief"
I think she is then conisdering what the end will be like. she thinks her lover will be very confused and have a hard time understanding where she is coming from and will be thrown off that the singer is taking a stand and is strong enough to end things. the singer has always been so passive and seemingly content until now:
" And I'm not proud that nothing will seem easy about me
But I promise this, I won't go my whole life telling you I don't need
I'll tell you now, I guess like I should have told you then
That thunder moves like damn drawers slamming in my frame
Slamming in my framework"
Thats just a total guess, but i know thats exactly how i have felt in a relationship before. losing my love, losing sleep and being totally void of giving relief or getting any myself.
To me the artist is singing about themself in a still in a relationship that she is questioning. Perhaps they are back together after a recent break up:
" I miss you now like I should have missed you then." And she is questioning if being back together is something that is more harm than good or if it might work out. She is unable to sleep when she's sleeping next to her lover because she is thinking too much and questioning everything, she cant get relief and therefore cannot offer relief. She is too uptight and uncertain to really open herself or to give any kind of deep affection and emotion to her lover. : "I can't untangle what I feel and what would matter most I can't close an eye, can't close an eyelid...Now there's no point in reaching out for me In the dark, I'm just no good at giving relief In the dark, it won't be easy to find relief"
I think she is then conisdering what the end will be like. she thinks her lover will be very confused and have a hard time understanding where she is coming from and will be thrown off that the singer is taking a stand and is strong enough to end things. the singer has always been so passive and seemingly content until now: " And I'm not proud that nothing will seem easy about me But I promise this, I won't go my whole life telling you I don't need I'll tell you now, I guess like I should have told you then That thunder moves like damn drawers slamming in my frame Slamming in my framework"
Thats just a total guess, but i know thats exactly how i have felt in a relationship before. losing my love, losing sleep and being totally void of giving relief or getting any myself.