it seems to me that he has lost someone and is having trouble moving on and wants to get em back. he knows that he needs to move on and is trying really hard to do that, 'Drag myself through the dirt again' but he is still having trouble letting go. 'Dwelling on the mistakes I've made'. 'Try to stay as clean as possible. The dirt just won't come off' makes me think that he has become almost obsessive compulsive to distract himself from the pain of losing them. but i think the previous entry was pretty good with saying that each day brings about new hope and such but by the end he is bak to his usual self and wanting to fix things between him and the one he lost.
it seems to me that he has lost someone and is having trouble moving on and wants to get em back. he knows that he needs to move on and is trying really hard to do that, 'Drag myself through the dirt again' but he is still having trouble letting go. 'Dwelling on the mistakes I've made'. 'Try to stay as clean as possible. The dirt just won't come off' makes me think that he has become almost obsessive compulsive to distract himself from the pain of losing them. but i think the previous entry was pretty good with saying that each day brings about new hope and such but by the end he is bak to his usual self and wanting to fix things between him and the one he lost.