Lyric discussion by Scarletibis 

Cover art for Today lyrics by Jeremy Larson

I think that you're on the right track. But I think it's more about a relationship he was in where his lover died. "that I awoke and that you stayed forever asleep" a.k.a dead. And how he was going to call her to tell her he loved her but she died and he did love her but now he can't. So now he's with out her, and he's afraid.