"A silver-plated numbing gum
And Jesus resting on my thumb"
One of the symptoms of Schizophrenia is seeing things that aren't there to most people.
A hard-to-reach malaria
Schizophrenia isn't that common of a disease, making it hard to reach. Malaria is used as a general term meaning disease or condition, much the same way "fever" is used later in the song.
I've got the mood that seems to scare ya
The general public has almost no understanding of what Schizophrenia is. People are scared of the unknown. For some reason, people assume that people with schizophrenia are all dangerous.
I'm paranoid -- self-destroyed
Paranoia is a common symptom of Schizotypical personality disorders, along with self-destruction. Pretty straightforward here.
Believe me Lord I'm sorry
He didn't want this to happen.
I've got the mood that seems to bury ya
I've got the nightmare called schizophrenia
There's some statistic on the number of people affected by Schizophrenia that die early, due to suicide and other effects of the disease.
I cry, I cry
And I don't know why
The fever becomes my home
He hates it, but it becomes what he's used to. He doesn't hate it any less, but that's the way he knows how to be.
I love it when you're holding me
You have a gentle way of calming
I haven't felt that way since 1993
When my mother held me
Does this stanza need an explanation?
I bet you're waiting for a long sob story
Of how I was mistreated again
A lot of people with mental disorders attribute them to some form of abuse in childhood, be it bullying, domestic violence, rape, whatever.
But no I wasn't built that way
I was strong -- desperately brave
He's above blaming his problems on other people.
I actually get a different meaning to this song.
"A silver-plated numbing gum And Jesus resting on my thumb" One of the symptoms of Schizophrenia is seeing things that aren't there to most people.
A hard-to-reach malaria Schizophrenia isn't that common of a disease, making it hard to reach. Malaria is used as a general term meaning disease or condition, much the same way "fever" is used later in the song.
I've got the mood that seems to scare ya The general public has almost no understanding of what Schizophrenia is. People are scared of the unknown. For some reason, people assume that people with schizophrenia are all dangerous.
I'm paranoid -- self-destroyed Paranoia is a common symptom of Schizotypical personality disorders, along with self-destruction. Pretty straightforward here.
Believe me Lord I'm sorry He didn't want this to happen.
I've got the mood that seems to bury ya I've got the nightmare called schizophrenia There's some statistic on the number of people affected by Schizophrenia that die early, due to suicide and other effects of the disease.
I cry, I cry And I don't know why The fever becomes my home He hates it, but it becomes what he's used to. He doesn't hate it any less, but that's the way he knows how to be.
I love it when you're holding me You have a gentle way of calming I haven't felt that way since 1993 When my mother held me Does this stanza need an explanation?
I bet you're waiting for a long sob story Of how I was mistreated again A lot of people with mental disorders attribute them to some form of abuse in childhood, be it bullying, domestic violence, rape, whatever.
But no I wasn't built that way I was strong -- desperately brave He's above blaming his problems on other people.
I didn't mean to scare ya What it says.
I love this song.