I think it's about doing coke and heroin on his birthday with his friends. And once they're gone, he's there left all alone and wondering about his friends and his lifestyle. He knows he's not leading any sort of glorious lifestyle (obviously, since he's getting drugged up on his bday), but he also feels that he has the ability to phase the whole thing out and better himself one day. One day, but for now it's all ok.
I think it's about doing coke and heroin on his birthday with his friends. And once they're gone, he's there left all alone and wondering about his friends and his lifestyle. He knows he's not leading any sort of glorious lifestyle (obviously, since he's getting drugged up on his bday), but he also feels that he has the ability to phase the whole thing out and better himself one day. One day, but for now it's all ok.
"this was a choice, this was never a mistake"