this song has spent a good while in my music library and i never realized how much it meant to me until i found myself discussing with her the biggest inadequacy i've ever felt in my entire life. and you know, that little noose is always at the back of my mind, urging for that suicide attempt, but this song speaks of a friend trying to prevent that. someone so caring that their friend's inner struggle with discovering themself and who they really are simply brings them to tears because they can't understand how much they're really loved. my life's been caught up in drugs and alcohol and promiscuous relations with people who have done nothing but treat me like dirt and i've finally found myself debating how i treat myself and how i let my life be lived. i've been losing my respect for myself and i've been beginning to feel like i'm losing the respect of everyone around me because i can't control myself and i'm developing into a person that i don't want to be. i found myself that night in the car talking to her repeating to myself "i just don't know," and i eventually fell right in sync with this song playing through my stereo on a mix cd i made about a month before.
right above me, discussing the major downward spiral, you've hit the nail on the head my dear.
"they want you to believe them and they'd love to see you hanging."
you know what this song means to me?
this song has spent a good while in my music library and i never realized how much it meant to me until i found myself discussing with her the biggest inadequacy i've ever felt in my entire life. and you know, that little noose is always at the back of my mind, urging for that suicide attempt, but this song speaks of a friend trying to prevent that. someone so caring that their friend's inner struggle with discovering themself and who they really are simply brings them to tears because they can't understand how much they're really loved. my life's been caught up in drugs and alcohol and promiscuous relations with people who have done nothing but treat me like dirt and i've finally found myself debating how i treat myself and how i let my life be lived. i've been losing my respect for myself and i've been beginning to feel like i'm losing the respect of everyone around me because i can't control myself and i'm developing into a person that i don't want to be. i found myself that night in the car talking to her repeating to myself "i just don't know," and i eventually fell right in sync with this song playing through my stereo on a mix cd i made about a month before.
right above me, discussing the major downward spiral, you've hit the nail on the head my dear.
"they want you to believe them and they'd love to see you hanging."
i, i, i, i just don't know/